This is a thread that i need to get off my chest and hopefully makes me feel better for myself and this is a thread that Foxytail did make it where were we couldn't these anymore but I worry about myself and maybe confessing up to others will make it all feel better. Here we go. First of all, I'm scared of myself in worry that I will seriously hurt myself so bad that it might take my own life. Sometimes when I'm driving my car, I get thoughts of ramming my car into a wall as fast as possible and start shuddering. Reasons for these thoughts? Failure and being a Screw up. I'm not suicidal and I'm not a coward. I wish not to believe in these but as for a coward from time to time, Yes but Taking my own life...No. I can't physically hurt myself to point that i'm in danger, so i don't worry about this. I'm-I'm Just tired. I'm Tired of Running. I'm Tired of Hiding. I'm Tired of being a Failure. I've skipped to much school this year and now my grades are in the drain. I asked myself, "What happen to you, Jeff?" I use to get all A's in High school and was on the honor roll. Now...What happen? I know no pony here can tell what exactly happen in my life, since it's my life but I don't know what happen, either. I can think of one solution to all of this. I'm scared of the real world. One side of me wants to get where i wish to be, while the other one wants to party, play games and goof off. I promised myself that i put full dedicated and Hard work for this year...I guess i Lied to myself then. I didn't want to go to school till the end of summer, since i wanted to have during that time to think in order to deal with these problems but my mother didn't want me to end up what my brother did a two years ago and for me to repeat it. I wish that other side of me would just go away. He's the one who's ruining me and hurting me for me to write about this. But i shall proceed to keep on Going. I'm lying myself and my Family at the same time. I've been suffering Panic attacks while i'm crying and I swear these things will be the death of me cause I having hard time breathing and it's take 15 to 20 minutes for me to calm down but i've been doing this at night and sometimes finding myself crying myself to sleep. I Never wanted to being up a topic about this about my life's problems at the moment but I needed to have somepony to listen. You don't have to reply to this topic, I just wanted somepony to listen. Sincerly, Jeff aka Turk
Jeff in all seriousness. The solution is God. I think you should give your life to Jesus. My life has been wonderful because I gave my life to him. The best part is that if you do die, you go to heaven. Or God might have a plan for you and he might give you protection and make you successful again. Either way it is a win win. If you want to give your life to God Pray this prayer "Heavenly Father, have mercy on me, a sinner. I believe in you and that your word is true. I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of the living God and that he died on the cross so that I may now have forgiveness for my sins and eternal life. I know that without you in my heart my life is meaningless.I believe in my heart that you, Lord God, raised Him from the dead. Please Jesus forgive me, for every sin I have ever committed or done in my heart, please Lord Jesus forgive me and come into my heart as my personal Lord and Savior today. I need you to be my Father and my friend.I give you my life and ask you to take full control from this moment on; I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ."Amen." You may choose not to but I will say this. Ever since I gave my life fully to Jesus I have been successful and my life has been Great! At least consider it.
you dont need to spend your time worshipping an idol,when you can consult people who can actually help and respond to you
Look he asked a question and I gave him an answer. I am offended at that comment but I am gonna let it pass. I don't want to argue. I just want to help
Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, Please, PLEASE do not say that. Two reasons: 1. It could spark arguments. 2. Some don't appreciate it. (e.g. Me)
Well you could have just left it too. I don't appreciate people insulting my religion. But I too don't want to start an arguement so let's just leave it here okay?
Ok, argue about the religion somewhere else. Use this thread to try to help TurkThePony. Religion can work for some people, others it doesn't. Turk, posting this is a good first step. You've come out and said you've had a problem. Do not let it stop here. Talk IRL to someone you trust. There are people that can help you. I don't know how much you are being affected, but talking to a professional may help. The stigma of seeing a psychiatrist went away long ago. I'll support you in whichever choice you make as long as that it helps you get through this. Good luck and I'm hoping for a pleasant outcome for you.
I wasn't insulting your religion, nor would I even try to. It's just that... well... religion isn't exactly a good topic to bring up in this sort of thread. It really does sound like you're trying to push it onto Turk. Sorry if any of this offended you. But yeah, let's end this line of discussion.
now lets get back to helping this fellow brony now im gonna tell you ssomething turk,and this is th ehonest truth,i have had flashes of times like that since i was little,from biting my own arm to vent flashes of anger,to just thinking about jumping off a staircase,over time i just got used to it and stopped focusing on it,never letting myself get bored,otherwise i get those flashes again.so dont think your the only one with this. and if you wanna vent anymore of how your feeling,just pm me,i can talk,i can just listen,whatever you need at that time
Thanks! No prob. I can easily get offended but it's all good. And no I wasn't trying to push it into him I was just stating what solution works best in my opinion. Anyway I don't want to cause any more trouble so I will just leave this thread alone. No hard feelings.
Sometimes i get the weirdest urge to kill something. Then i play my video games. Helps me.Like anger management. I have 2 sides as well. My normal,good and helpful side. And my insane,narcissistic killer side. And then there the odd voice in my head that just spouts nonsense. Don't run form your other side Look at it. Don't fear it. Just look. You may realize something. That's what i did.
Don't worry about me, 51m0nn. I know God is With me, even in the most darkest hour of my times. Don't fret, Chip. It's okay. I Respect people who give out religion to those in need of help. :3 Thank you, Dragonbait. :3 I already know who to talk to and that is my mother. If weren't for my mother, I'd be Lost. Thank you, Chip. :3 Well normally i Eat food as in terms of -Comfort Food and after a while it goes away and i'm jolly again. As strange that may seem but it is what it is.
That's awesome, having family that can help you is always a plus. Lean on her if you need to (and probably are), staying close with a supportive family is essential.
If you don't mind me asking. What exactly changed in your life that is forcing you to have these thoughts?
Takeing a minute to catch your breath every now and then is ok Turk. You're going through a phase in life where you feel if you have made the right decisions in life so far. Don't believe that you haven't. Keep going forward with your life. I too feel scared in what the future has in stored for me but I plan to get through it without backing down.
I just want to say I am very proud of this community for not ripping each other to shreds on the religion topic and coming through with a peaceful solution. I'm also very proud of the Christians who are displaying true Christian like behavior by trying to say humble and staying cool headed even though there are conflicting feelings on the subject of religion.
I Will. :3 Second Year with college Started when I had kept failing homework, even when I tried my hardest on it. Then after that, I started skipping classes and after awhile I started feeling bad about it with CAD and this before i switched my Major. This this was turn point of my GPA and Grades started to drop and I fell into Sorrow for a while and every now then i hits me hard and i just want to be left alone. My folks ask why you don't want to talk or see anyone? I want to tell them the Truth but I have it hard with telling the truth my folks. It got Worst and then the thoughts started coming. It's hard to let the past go and look forward towards the future. That's Really the issue. I know. This will all change on next Thursday. That will be the Pin-point where it's all gonna stop. Thank you, Lyonk
I think the only thing you should fear is a radical absolution. Find what makes you happy, comfortable, and sustained. Balance your life in the way YOU feel you're comfortable, perhaps even proud with.
Well if your past is affecting you this much, I'm going to be blunt: you need to move on. What's done is done, holding onto the past like this will only keep making your future worse because you aren't concentrating on what's important. You need to try and clear your mind, start fresh, and keep trying in school. That's the most important thing, keep trying and don't give up. Everyone succeeds in the end if they try and have the incentive to do something about their faults. Acknowledge those faults, don't avoid them, and figure out how to overcome them. For the emotional issues you are facing, I would look into seeing counseling to help ease them. And keep close to you family, don't push them away, no matter how you are feeling right now. As people behind computer screens, we can't really provide the support that family and actual physical help can. We can try our best, but there is no substitute.
