I never really post outside of this thread. That's why I've been here for several months and only have 500 posts lol. I always try to keep my posts more quality than quantity rather than just posting to be posting. Plus I have this weird insecurity that whenever I post, people look at it and just go "Ugh, HER again. God she's so annoying." xD
Never on this site :3 This is site is probably the only site where I don't care what others think, seeing as I have the secure knowledge that all people here are so good people
Oh..hey *Gag*Cloudy...You should probably stay back..I'm feeling kinda..*Convulses*Sick..*Pukes on floor*
I'm so glad I found this place. It's really really helped me to start working through some lasting insecurities. The best way to put it is that my confidence is bi-polar. Most of the time, I have a very healthy level of confidence and self-esteem. How I act here on the forums is how I am in real life. But then sometimes, I'm so down and depressed that all I can do is lay in my bed, stare at the ceiling, and quietly cry because I feel so worthless and undeserving of any happiness. I'll spend days at a time beating myself up over every little thing. I will take any situation and twist it around to where it's my fault and yell at myself in my head. When I get like that, I feel like I deserve to feel this way, and since no one else will yell at me and make me feel *squee!*ty, I have to do it myself. And that I could stop if someone else would just realize how many mistakes I make and how horrible I am. Unfortunately, I'm getting into one of those moods. So who knows what the next couple days will be like.
Huh, her again. God, she's [video=youtube;hYjpE1I7XbE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYjpE1I7XbE[/video]
NOT ON MY WATCH! You helped me so much, so now I (try to) help you! YOU. ARE. AWESOME. You got someone as cynical as me to do almost a complete 180 and start seeing sunshine and rainbows in everything! Don't ever let anyone tell you, especially yourself, that you're worthless or somehow undeserving of happiness. You got me to believein myself when I felt no one else would, least of all me. Now you listen to me. You are amazing and an inspiration, and a TRUE FRIEND!
My child is born. This world is doomed. I'll post it tomorrow when I have the opportunity to scan it. He has an Afro, jet pack, and robotic legs.
Hey Zephyr, Poetic said you were putting together a group Winter Wrap-Up thing. Any way I can get in on that?
Of course. I have no idea how to actually organize it, I'll probably make a thread about it later when I'm on my computer.
=) I can only hope. Heehee. Oooh, Trixie. ~~~ In all honesty, I just need to kick my own butt. Tell the chemicals running around in my brain to quit their crap and start behaving. I have no real reason to be depressed, so I shouldn't let myself be. I need to be better than this.
I'm so glad I was able to help you with that =) I try to make everyone around me happier if I can, so I'm glad I was successful. Everyone deserves to feel good about themselves and to feel like they contribute something to their corner of the world. I'm also so glad that you feel these things about me. I've had way too many negative, spiteful people in my life. I do whatever I can to not be like them, so it's a huge relief and a great honor that I have managed to differentiate myself from them. Now if only I can differentiate myself from their hold on my thoughts and emotions lol.
Woah, that's horrible to hear man. If you don't mind me asking, what kind is it? Is it as bad as it could be? My questions are only making things worse, I hope the best for your dad, this is an awful thing to have happen.
Oh honey, I'm so sorry =( Is there anything they can do? A few people in my family have had cancer, but it's luckily been early enough that they were able to do surgery and get it all. My boyfriend's grandmother finished chemo and radiation stuff a few months ago, and she's doing well. I wish your dad all the luck my family has had. If you ever need anyone to talk to, someone who's been where you are, you know where to find me. *hugs tightly*
big image is big. My dad has had this wart thing on his cheek/neck for as long as I can remember, he recently got it removed in the same doctor's visit I went to get my mental diagnosis (which wasn't fun to find out). Anyway, he got told that this wart thing that was removed was cancerous, and cancer cells are still inside him after the procedure. I'm not sure if its life threatening or treatable etc. But from recent events in my life going terribly wrong, I've turned into quite the pessimist, so I'm expecting the worst. Thank you all for your support all the same
Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. Everything is going to be okay, sweetie. I promise. Everything is always going to be okay =) *cuddles*
