thanks ^^ *hugs cause we do need it* I do also hear auditory stuff all the time. Most of it is whispering nonsense, but sometimes its quite disturbing, but this time it was a lot more real :/. As for visual, perhaps once or twice a day I'll see a little glitch or something, that when I look again its normal, or when I ask someone close to me to look at something, they see nothing and look at me strangely I just laugh it off. I was thinking about everyone here, not wanting them to miss me, but I also didn't want to take the chance to hurt you, so I stayed away. as for the people getting to me, for all cases, its really irrational, I just feel hate and stuff everytime they say something. again, I don't want to feel this way, but I do, and I don't think talking about it will help much. It's been going on for a while, and it is lessening in severity. @pixel: no. Never. I WILL NEVER HATE YOU. -endofstory- @yami:...Dream theater is one of my favourite bands..... Devin Townsend is #1 though ^^ EDIT: Thanks Jumbo, its so nice to see that everyone is willing to help one in need ^^.
I can really vouch for this advice. Before ponies and you awesome guys here, I always just let resentment build up without saying anything. But I'm doing better at actually letting someone know when they're getting to me and explaining why I think so. not only does it make me feel better, not building up rage, but it helps me think more clearly too when I talk to them. I'd have called myself silly for thinking something like that could work before. But after experiencing it personally, I can't explain it, but it does.
@xan, yes, win. *dance of xan/father love* This calls for tombstone. -- Sent from my Palm Pre using Forums
Toombstone yoou say? UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5. amidoinitrite?
Ok..everything feels numb.... I need to get some sleep.But i dont want to get off the forum.. Mom can i have my iPhone now?
Of course we miss you ^_^ Your our little Xannypoo and we love you ^_^ <3 And it really means a lot that even in the midst of your own troubles, you still thought to protect us <3 This just proves how much of an amazing person you are, you know <3 I'm glad that those unsavory feelings are lessening in time. ^_^ WHY ARE MY EMOTICONS NOT ENOUGH TO EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU? I MUST TOUCH YOUR FACE AAAAAAAHHHH *rubs her hands all over your face* FEEL MY LOVE. FEEL IT. THERE IS SO MUCH LOVE FOR YOU XAN.
Close you forgot the words Like this You try your best but it's not quiet there. UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 UNTS UNTZ UN7Z UNT5 You try your best but it's not quiet there. -- Sent from my Palm Pre using Forums
But my love is not angry! My love is like an ENORMOUS heart shaped balloon exploding into heart shaped confetti that is secretly tiny heart shaped balloons that explode into shiny confetti that is made up of tiny hugs that COVER YOU LIKE A WARM BLANKET FOREVER! ^_^ Also, there are fluffy cupcakes and cute kittens. Damn right you're being smothered in love. Smothered like a biscuit in gravy <3
Oh no need to thank me i went to a troubled life, too i had some real deep issues with my elder sister a long time ago (she stole money from me when i wasnt home, i was hiding my savings under a loose floorplate, and she found out and took it and ran away to her boyfriend to leave the country.) She was captured at the airport and brought back to my home. My parents decided to trow her out of the house and she moved in with her (new BF) and then all of a sudden she came crawling back, saying that she was dumb and was sorry for taking the money. ahe was on drugs, too... We dicided to give her a second chance, but she died one year ago, after she took an overdose heroine. Somehow i felt and still feel guilty for that, since it was me who told my parents that she ran away with my whole savings... if they never had captured her, she maybe would be alive by now, somewhere in brazil, yeah, but at least alive. I had terrible depressions, everyone told me it was not my fault, but i still cant bring me to believe that. But i somehow make my day, even though its hard though and i have nightmares reaccuring of seing her twichting, lying on the floor and i can do nothing to save her... But im happy that i found a nice community here, so that i can cheer me up a bit every day makes my life a really better time than before becoming a brony.
Well, Everypony, I'm going to sleep now. 'Night! Note: It'll say I'm online; I'm too lazy to log out.