After a veryrough nightsleep im finally back here...its 9:30 in the morning and i feel like ****. i had a bad dream, involving my past, and it was close to cut open old wounds which is a bad thing, i dont want to be bad-mooded all day like 3 or 4 years ago, when i reached finals phase in high school (would be Highschool in the US) i got rejected by about 5 grils in arow, which just said "Lad, u're ugly and fat, i dont even think about going out with you." (yeah i now know that such "people" arent even worth looking at) But it still hurted back then, and i got in a depressive phase, i didnt want to meet with my few friends anymore, and lost one by one. But soon after that i met a wonderful person which held to me and talked to me even when i sad back in the last row and kept drawing in class. She was really nice and i talked to her very often, shes still one of my closest friends today. These Dialogues built me up, at least so much that i picked up contact to new people and finally about half a year ago i became a brony and this was the best thing happend in my life. Now im mostly bumping around in my room and drawing ponies all the time and have a more positive view of life! But i keep having bad dreams from time to time, or my scumbag brain makes me think of that time...
We need to get to 3000!! WHY CAN'T I STOP WATCHING THIS!?! [video=youtube;WzTzeYVgtw4]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzTzeYVgtw4&feature=related[/video]
I love to think about pinkamena about to kill Fluttershy, Then karkat comes into the room. Grabs a SMG and blows the buck out of pinkamena :3
No i dont wqant to discuss what is considered "beauty" now its too complicated, i, as example, think my drawings are beautiful, but others wouldn't even consider this word for them It lies in the eye of the viewer (for example i dont like nude art or something like that)
Everytime i see such beauty i think that i need to dump my pencils and start doing art on my PC, then i try it and im getting desperate which ends up in doing nothing...
I know that feeling, I want their talent. People say don't compare yourself, if I don't compare I have nothing to shot for.
I don't really have much to offer in such a conversation, as it revolves more around artistic side of things. When I program, I know I have only a couple years experience under my loins, and I look at successful software developers, especially game developers. I take note of not how terrible my creation is to theirs, but rather see the hours of dedication put into it, the many, many years of experience to construct such a piece, as well as consider the fact that its teams creating the work, rather than just one person. Eh, I failed at getting my ideas across there.
I don't think they cross over to well. Some artist like Skoon have never had any training like me, while some like Swaet do(I think so at least). I look at swaetshirt pictures and hope that one day I will be able to mimic or surpass that.
I wish to one day fund my own Games company, if not work for a small one and build up with it, most probably starting indie. I would call Bethesda, Valve, Blizzard as a whole, as well as John Carmack from id software the most influential. Not because they make my favourite games, that would include other companies, but rather their great history they have, the amount of success they've encountered after so much strife, as well as revolutionizing many aspects of the gaming world
