Hay guise! XD I am in a very good mood now! that musical evening was just the relief I needed! I am gonna make the most of this as I probably won't feel this good until exams are over. Anyway I'll just post my conundrum while I am thinking straight and can actually explain it properly without random outburst of anger XD So basically The school thinks that the students are super heroes and can do multiple things at once without breaking a sweat, because if they didn't they wouldn't have given us all our projects and homework tasks a week before exams, so they expect us to learn, do sport, do the homework tasks, and keep our sanity levels up enough to actually survive... I have two surveys to do, These have to be done at school...BOTH of them get given to us on the last day of last week, we get back to school on wednesday, giving me 3 days to complete them as they are due on monday and thursday next week. Not only do I have to do a survey, I have to write a report on it, and do a speech afterwards. Then I have to make a guard tower out of sosati (Kebab) Sticks with a flag that can be raised and lowered and working search lights. Not to mention that next week Eisteddfod begins so I have to keep my piano skills top notch, all this is happening in the space of 3 weeks, after those 3 weeks I should hope that only exams are left. But at least now you guys can see why I am usually so stressed. I get home, my brain is dead so I cannot do half the stuff I am supposed to do properly, then if I do it wrong my troll OCD brain tells me I am useless and that I shouldn't bother, this frustrated me as I am quite the perfectionist and I get horribly angry if I do something wrong, My parents don't help either as they pressure me into doing my best, this makes me worry " What If I don't get it right?" I'll have let them down, that's the last thing that I want. I can't exactly just stop either because then I feel like I am letting myself down because I am not strong enough to go through the challenges of life. I won't lie, I have actually had thoughts of suicide, but I could never do that because it would be an act of weakness in my opinion, I'm also too stubborn to give up, but going through with all this work is having a huge toll on my mental and physical capabilities. Anyway that is my rant done, I feel better after telling it to you guys too, it is now late and I still have a little studying to do so I'll get to that.
Wow, man. I wish you the best of luck. That's even more stuff than I have to do most of the time... You shouldn't have to put up with that; don't give up, but also don't feel like you are useless if you can't get everything done.
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Thanks dude! It means a lot. You too Yami, I'm off to bed now Thanks for the support, I'll always turn to you guys for help, you do a good job at comforting me :3 anyway goodnight
Is it wrong i find slaughtering guards by the dozens on Assassins Creed fun? At least it relieves anger...
I sometimes play the kill streak challenge JUST for that purpose.And to see how many i kill. Seriously..if i see a guard..10 seconds later he is dead.
just got new contacts bought a new 32 inch flat screen for my room..... i can safely say im staying in my room for awhile :derpe:
I just had a small fight with my mom, which almost never happens. It was something stupid, nobody's fold really. I guess small fights are bound to happen. Still, feels bad man. :/
I'm sorry to hear that. I got in a fight with my mom a month or so back. It's wasn't fun, so I know that feeling.
