After I have a fight with someone (which, thankfully, happens quite rarely), I avoid any contact or interaction with that person until both of us cool down and are able to discuss the subject of our argument in a calm and rational manner. Unfortunately, I can never seem to get the "avoid contact" part right without coming off as sulking.
I find it hard to sleep and when I do, find it hard to stay asleep. I often, including now, worry I annoy everyone. I have 4 IRL friends and many more enemies than I should. I used to do street dance, but the stunts got too extreme. I have a lot of fears. I'm accident prone, but allergic to plasters. I am socially akward, so I hide myself away from the world, using the internet to hide myself from the reality outside. Thats about all for now .-.
I willingly do stupid things that I know will get me hurt just to see if the people who I call 'friends' will even help me. I only have about 5 friends who I can actualy trust, all the others have already stabbed me in the back. I once thew my skateboard at someone becuase they wouldn't stop saying that all bronies are gay and just love clop. (I should of just walked away.) And umm, that's about it... Anything else I don't really want to say.
For some reason, I find socialising quite difficult, often listening to others talk rather than actually talking. I often plan how I'd respond in certain situations, but if someone, say, addresses me, I sometimes just don't know how to respond. And Occasionally, I don't know when someone's joking- Sometimes I go too far with my jokes. I'm just an overall social mess.
I tell people I have watched or read something so they don't bug me to watch or read it I bought a pack of cigarettes and I am deciding If I want to smoke them or not
Not a day goes bye where I don't think, wouldn't the world be a better place if we pesky humans weren't messing it up all the time...but then I think..... on the other hand, everything would be rather boring..... darn you humanity, u make me so bipolar! Also, I think Applejack would be a very sexy woman if she were human. Finally, sometimes, when no ones looking i make faces in the mirror.
Seriously dude, don't smoke them, I'm not trying to sound like of them anti-smoking caimpainers, but when you lose probably one of the best members of your relatively limited members to lung cancer that was directly caused by smoking, well...Yea...You hate even the mention of them...Even if it's "This one pack", who's to say you will stop? You aren't alone in that thought Also, not alone
Well, you choose what you do, but please, seriously, consider the consequences of it. Smoking isn't in the top three causes of preventable death for no reason, and it's also a massive waste of money. Seriously, plug in the numbers, say one pack a day(which is the average) times it by 7, times that by 4, times that by 12. All that money, right down the drain. And that's not including the increased costs of medical and life insurance...
Ever since I was young, I've always wanted to help people. I believe this is because I want people to be happier than I ever was, as a child and further. And I will continue to post things here when things come to mind, because I suck.
I smoke for 5 years now, since i was 15. I always wished i never started, and even though, i dont really want to stop at the moment. Do as you wish. Just remember in some years you may regret it.
