This is a reflective thread that I would like to get everypony's participation in. If you haven't already guessed from the title, this topic asks that you write a brief description of yourself, your situation, or your goals from one year to one and a half years ago. Then you could also share how things have changed since then, whether for better or worse. I also forgot the other point that was going to be brought up here, but I suppose the latter is enough to get the ball rolling. May as well start this one myself... ...One year ago, I was not a pretty picture. I had hit what some would say a 'rock bottom' of some kind, both mentally and emotionally. I was alone in this period of time and didn't have any type of support for it, at a point where most 'professionals' may consider it critical. Worst of all, I had made a mistake that I was solely responsible for - as a result, I lost one year of my life in self-prescribed isolation. It did not help me any and may have only exacerbated any psychological conditioning I had to keep myself in a 'safe mode' of sorts. I value my time very much because I realize that as a result of many outside factors that directly affect me (stress, unhealthy/insufficient nutrition, mental illness, etc.), it is unlikely I'll see myself survive past middle age (I'm 19 right now - I estimate I have 25 or so years left to make something of myself). Any time I waste is time that I can't get back and realizing it puts pressure on me. At the same time, I felt trapped and unable to take reign of my life and its direction, so very little was actually being done. I eventually snapped out of the latter thought, but it didn't change any fact that I had taken a rather serious setback. The rest of that year was then spent trying to correct it, but as of two months ago, it also ended in failure. Then ponies came along around the same time and I suppose things have since improved, at least from a certain point of view. Reflecting on all of it, this mistake a year ago snowballed into something I couldn't control, until about three weeks ago when I slapped myself back into working order. I'm still very much in a crisis of the self, but I am otherwise 'alright', so I can manage. I'm still alone and isolated, but I remembered that it has *always* been that way and that I can deal with it in the meantime. I realize that I've lost time and that my current plans put me in a position to potentially lose more of it that was reserved to myself. The only notable change between now and then is that I'm now fully invested in myself and will take a greater initiative in my goals, but otherwise nothing really changed. I fell down and I'm trying to pick myself back up, stand on my own again as I often try to do (it sure beats the alternative). Oh yeah, and ponies. That's about it. And that should get things started. Yes.
Ponies is pretty obvious. Otherwise, high school. Most people hate it with a burning, flaming, rife-with-arson passion, but I'm really enjoying it. It's probably because I'm not in an area where bullying is common. Also, I wasn't really a hardcore dance/electronic fan, and I also read more books, I just don't have that time anymore (says the guy who's on the computer). My life isn't in any sort of downward spiral, so I wish I could relate. Sorry about what is seemingly a pretty bad situation for you, Standby.
Hmmm, my story's more intresting around 3-2 years back... But here, one year anyways. :derpe: 2010: Angry at life and most things in general, in a depressive state and all that... but getting better. Starting last year of junior high with hopes not to slack off like the last years, but I just had my mind on other things. 2011: A fair amount happier, still has family probs but not as bad as the years before. Trying at school, but I must break my bad habits. Also trying to become a better person, and planning for the future... now just to put things into action.
I was celebrating my one year anniversary of a relationship I was in at the time and I was just beginning to find out that I wanted to be a voice actor or director when I grow up. XD
September 28, 2010 : Being a touhou otaku, learning java, and other things. Like a baus. No mental issues to speak of, besides a depressed dude on a stream I frequented. Now : Being a touhou otaku, knowing java, being a brony, and other things. Like a baus! No problems, but many depressed people here recently, the chap from before not one of them.
Let's see.... Last year, I was just about the same as now, but relationship-free. Unless a love/hate relationship with WoW can count for that.... Oh, right, I gave that up too...
One year ago I was unemployed and on Welfare. I had recently quit my job and moved to the city out of depression and being fed up with my job. I spent a long time on an unemployed allowance that required me to look for a job, which I wasn't trying very hard. I did not want to go back into a depressing dead end job, especially since it was more then likely going to be worse then the one I used to have. During the free time I have I became a big fan of online video makers and wanted to become one myself and best case scenario wanted to become a movie director or video editor. So after a long time of having my life go nowhere I finally decide to sign up for film school and I was successful. So that is where I am now and am happier then I have been for my entire life, I think.
2010: A man with almost everything. 2011: A man with nearly nothing. That's about it. Currently looking for a job and am not in school. Luckily I have ponies to keep me in a good mood.
Exactly one year ago today I was minigolfing with my dad in Orlando....that was a great vacation... Well, I'm pretty much the same as I was back then. Only now, I'm filled with joy and love for all, especially you guys!
One year ago Couldn't play trombone for my life couldn't whistle Toeing 300 lbs. (134 Kilograms) Not the sanest I've ever been... Had to bum rides everywhere. NO PONIES! Today First trombone! Whistles up a storm! Lost a ton of weight! 207.1 lbs and losing more every day! (~94 Kilograms) Not on crazy pills Growing a beard and has a car! PONIES EVERYDAY!!! CONCLUSION: I have improved drastically in the past 365 days! It took work and will power, but I had friends to pull me through! I have you guys to thank for that! Thank you Everypony!
About a year ago today, I had got settled back into my parents house because I decided I didn't know what I wanted to do in college, and quit because I didn't like film production anymore. I used to live in the middle of Houston, where everything in the world is, and then had to move back to basically the Everfree Forest over an hour away from all of them. And it was a really tough adjustment. Since then, I got and quit my first actual job at walmart, (long, rage filled story of why I did it, if there is a rage/bad day thread somewhere here I'll make sure to post it there) moved BACK to the city, and moved BACK home AGAIN because my second ever job kinda screwed us over. It's not their fault, it was a call center that did surveys and stuff, and we didn't have any work come in for 20 days. So me and my roommate had to quit and move back home. And now I'm looking for another job, so that I could eventually get moved back into the city again, and still trying to find what I want to do with my life.
one year ago: school, loneliness, no ponies, alucinations(refusing to take medicine), best friend getting far, no drawing no instruments to play. this year: heavy work, loneliness, PONIES, alucinations(still dont take the medicine but now i can deal with them), best friend dead, drawing ponies, playing ocarina, have i said about the ponies? i guess the overall is a little better ^_^
I'm so sorry your life was so crummy at that time, Standby! *hug!* I'm sorry to hear that, Sonic! *hug!* Me 2010: Same as now, pretty much, except at the time I was a die-hard Pokemon fanatic! Me 2011: Ponies are now my primary interest. I hope my interest in Pokemon dosen't completely burn out though. It has felt like it's been dwindling a bit.
2006 - Addicted to TES Oblivion 2008 - Addicted to World of Warcraft 2009 - Addicted to Bleach & Naruto manga 2010 - Addicted to World of Warcraft (again) 2011 - Addicted to, you guessed it, ponies.
2010, old truck, old house, old obsessions. 2011, old truck, newer house, PONYOBSESSION! Not much had changed with the exception of ponies.
Interesting . . . I was writing a letter to my friend one year ago. Not just any letter - but a CM letter! A CM letter is a super letter. When we write each other, it drags on for pages and pages. This one, because lots was going on in my life, went on for 50,000 words! That's 95 pages typed out! Any ways, I looked at what I was writing last year in September, and big surprise, I was having anxiety attacks. I felt really lost and hopeless and felt the only friend I had left lived hundreds of miles (kilometers) away. Now, I have lots of friends here, I haven't had a major anxiety attack in about a year, and while other things don't look quite so good (still have a sucky job, still don't have any good friends here, just some acquaintances), I have ponies and you guys to talk to. I'm still kind of amazed that this cartoon can make me so happy just by thinking or watching it. Equally weird, it makes me think about making my life better.
