I've been a member of multiple pony forums, and I get banned from all the ones I feel at home on. I get comfortable enough to open up and be myself, which basically means that I let my depression and anger loose. On the last forum I was a part of, I wasn't even given a chance to explain myself before being banned due to the admin misunderstanding a bunch of things I said and kicking me as a form of being safe rather than sorry. I'm still having panic attacks and deep anxiety over this, and I joined this site hoping that I could make myself feel better. Nothing works though. I always want what I can't have, and it doesn't feel possible for me to force myself to fit in. All I want is a site where I feel comfortable and happy that isn't so big that all my posts get drowned out. It's like I don't deserve to be happy.
You gotta fight for happiness. Also, instead of revealing everything publicly, you should find 1 person of whom you trust, look up to, expect wise advise from, and talk to that person in private.
I'm just not good with people and make stupid decisions. That and I'm addicted to attention like a small child. So many things wrong with me.
Well, the only reasonable help I can offer is to be careful with how you go about sharing things. I can almost guarantee that you won't be banned from this site for no good reason. So long as your content remains within the rules you should face no punishment. It's okay to like attention but the way you go about it needs to follow the rules of the site. It's not that you don't fit in, but that you make decisions that work against your benefit. Most of the people here on EP are pretty cool (used that term loosely >.<) and will accept you as a person but there is a limit on everything. You have to try to stay within that limit of acceptance. While it is common practice for bronies to "tolerate" this is still a forum where children may be present and content has to be monitored. The owner can face a lot of trouble over what you might think is a misunderstanding. As with anything, any forum, your posts might be overlooked. That's no reason to be upset. Half of my posts get overlooked but I'm fine with that. Someone is going to read your post, whether they reply or not is a different story. I have a thread elsewhere with over 5,000 views. You know how many replies I've gotten? Roughly 30, not including all my constant posting. People view content and don't reply when they don't have anything of importance to say. The trick is to keep posting because eventually someone, somewhere is going to reply. You'll start getting noticed and you'll see those replies go way up. Just remember to have fun and follow the rules. This is a community for friends.
If you ever start feeling depressed or angry, and you're looking for help with that, there's a forum on this site designed for exactly those kinds of feelings. As long as you use that section to ask for help in dealing with such issues, you'll be fine. There should be absolutely no one here who would ban you for it.
