Something that kinda makes me feel bad...

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  1. EccentricBrony

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    Hi.
    I really just need to write this (I have no reason why, may because I have no one to talk to right now as usual)

    I play a couple of instruments and I am heavily into music with more or less all my heart and brain. Mainly due to the fact that I have Asperger Syndrome which allows me to focus on things for a very long amount of time and remember a lot of details and material after looking at it one to two times. This is also where the "problem" comes from.. My main instrument is the bass guitar and I play it a lot. As an example, my longest music session was around 14 hours non-stop, I diden´t eat that day and took breaks only when my bladder was close to bursting, but I digress. The thing is that many people that have heard me playing and some of my music tends to say that I am gifted or very talented, which I do not understand at all as my music does not really contain any aspects that would imply anything of that nature. The thing is that I feel like I am not as good as I was supposed to be, as in my opinion my playing is nothing more than average, and people comment on my playing a lot of the time with very positive responses telling me that I am gifted etc, and it makes me feel a bit sad. I have no idea why though.

    Sorry for the long text with no real motive other than vent x3
     
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    Music is just like any other type of art.
    If you're not your own harshest critic, you're doing something wrong.

    All I can tell you is to use that frustration to push yourself to improve.
     
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    Hi.
    And yeah, I am using all the frustration to further improve my level of playing. Which is why I´m currently having lessons from to teachers and constantly making or practicing music. I am however very lucky cause I have the ability to learn two things at the same time with no real issue so that, alongside the fact that I learn pretty quickly, tends to make it a lot easier :)
    Sorry, I just needed to vent it lol.
     
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    When someone tells you that you're gifted, they're not just saying it because what you do impresses them. Someone who is truly great at something will love it and have potential to grow, and if people see that in you they will remark that you are "gifted", though I prefer to consider someone's hard work and achievement before using vague terms like "gifted" that tend to shift the focus off of the person putting in the work and love. If you're working hard or enjoying yourself, you're doing a good job.
     
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    Hi.
    I actually had not thought about that. It is just the fact that most of the music I create does not reach the levels of other in the fandom like Aviators etc. And in my opinion my own music tends to be very boring, and a lot of the reason I have not gotten to make better stuff is because I am a bit of a perfectionist so I kinda need the best to work with, which in turn is not very cheap in terms of musical equipment haha. But I love making music and I often come up with things that are cool, and I tend to spend a lot of time with music, improvising, learning songs/playing songs, practicing etc.
    https://soundcloud.com/eccentricbrony there´s my music so you can actually hear what I am talking about...

    Thanks for answering :)
     
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    No problem! I'll be sure to look into your stuff.
     
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    Thank you. It means a lot :)
     
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    These are all quite good.
    Have you ever considered starting or joining a band?
     
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    Yes Ridley I have tried both forming and joining several bands (Forming: 3 and joining: 5) A lot of the time I have problems based of the fact that due to various mental health issues I find being social very hard, and I often end up becoming very nervous and distracted when playing, and then I kinda start to suck because of it. Although I will also admit that my rhythm playing was not the best at the time I was trying to join other bands as well so it´s a combination of both things.
    I tried starting one project when I started playing music but shut down the idea after realizing that I was not at any level to work with others. After that I tried to set up a project with a very good friend of mine, and that produced a demo song, but it was disbanded after him and I ended up un-friending each other due to several reasons. And the last one is one that I am doing right now. Which I have found to guitarists (Very good one´s too) and a keyboard player for the moment. And this one is going very well at the moment, we are working on around three-four songs and a lot of ideas.
    (I should mention that I play bass and a bit of keyboards, but mostly creating pads and soundscapes in that area of instruments. Bass however is my passion and is my main instrument, in fact I am playing bass at the moment of writing this x3)
    And thaks for enjoying my music, means a lot to me :)
    (And on a side note, do you know anyone who could help me with a few video related things? I don´t have any ability atm to get my music uploaded to YT and I can´t seem to find anyone who can help me with it. )
     
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    I get really sad when this happens.

    I get sad when i see someone drunk or wandering drunk. The reason i get sad about this is because the way i see it, it seems they are either are drinking because; They are partying, they are are very depressed, or they just are having a beer with friends. What ever reason, when i see them drunk, i know i cant help them. When they get drunk its the first steps to addiction and i cant do anything to stop it, the more they drink, the more they waste. The only way to stop addiction is to do it on your own, It cant be forced.
     
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    Uh....that came completely out of left field.

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    My apologies

    Sorry, its a sore topic for me. My friend had an Alcohol problem.
     
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    Yeah, that makes sense, and that would be difficult to go through... But this is a topic about a guy who was having trouble figuring out how to react to having his musical abilities referred to as "gifted" or "talented".
     
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    Sorry to hear about your friend Silver Soul, alcohol problems can often be really devestating for people *Hugs*
    And don´t worry, I don´t mind that you posted that in this thread :)

    Have a nice day.
     
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    True, some people are addicted to alcohol, but not all drunk people are addicts and not every first beer leads to a life of shameless addiction. Alcohol is not nearly as addictive as nicotine or other substances. Unless a specific person's brain chemistry pre-disposes them to substance abuse, or they choose to abuse alcohol regularly, drinking even over a lifetime will not lead to addiction. Let's face facts: sometimes people get drunk in public. You don't need to feel sorry for them as long as they're not bothering anyone.
     
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    hmm

    now you make me see drunks differently.. im going to start feeling sorry for them everytime i see one now
     
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    I feel you, I'm trying my best to make some good music, but I just know I just don't think I'm good at using Garageband, but I guess anyone else would say I'm good. I want to try to make music like this:
    [SOUNDCLOUD]https://soundcloud.com/aviatorscompositions/reflections-of-a-dream-part-2[/SOUNDCLOUD]
    ...but I know I need more practice and more materials and resources, so I'll just say you need more practice and inspiration by this artist, or at least that's my suggestion.
     
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    I´d say that you should never give up! Music can be an extremely giving hobby and for some people a good profession. In my case, I have very little way to express myself and I have a lot of problems stemming from Asperger Syndrome, and music has become a way for me to just remove myself from everything and make stuff. If you throw a ball at me, I will in 95% of the cases not be able to catch it. But give me a piece of for example Dream Theater´s music, and I can play through parts of the song in minutes (Off course if I know the technique used etc) or any other song for that matter, or at least on bass. I´m a bit slower on piano but that is because I´m not as used to it yet. And the fun thing is that in order to make good music, you don´t need to be Rudess, Vivaldi or by any means a virtuoso. As one of my music teachers said once "Learn 4 chords... And you can play a million songs" :)
    Just practice and make stuff! You don´t need to upload everything you make either, a lot of it can just be for practice. I do that all the time. If you ever want, just add me on Skype and I can try to help the little I can^^ :)

    Have a nice day!

    -Eccentric
     

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