I hate myself right now! I went to a theater about 20 minutes away to see RR and found out it was the wrong one!!! It was supposed to start at 11:45AM and I got there at 11:30 and no one was there. I called my mom to see if she could look it up but she had already left the house. When I got home at 12:20, I found out it was at the one that was 5 minutes from the other one. I was furious!!!!!!! I'm probably going back up there tomorrow for the 11:45AM showing since now I know where it is. But DAMN!!!! I could have seen it TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry to play necromancer here, but this reminded me of something once. Seems like every time I look up my symptoms on WebMD, it claims I'm pregnant. *sigh*
Tapatalk sucks. I was supposed to get my internet hooked up yesterday, but the person who lived here before me broke the cable hookup. Now I'm stuck without WiFi until Tuesday.
I was part of this fanbase for about 3 years now, made lost of friends at that time. We talked and did a bunch of cool projects together, did a few podcast, got to meet some real interesting people, wrote on a few blogs, got a bit of a following, it was fun. But then life happened and I needed to get away for awhile, and when I came back, everyone was gone. Felt a bit lonely afterwords, kind of felt lost , not sure what to do with myself anymore, I became inactive in the "fandom". I slowly isolated myself from everybody. So I quietly felt. Its funny, really, all that work and time dedicated, and it just vanish in a instant. I felt like I wasted a good portion of my life. But I still visit the sites I used to go from time to time, for nostalgia mostly.
^ I felt that way when I was an active member of TVTropes. I remember remarking that [returning for the first time in months] was like waking up from cryosleep to find that the world around you is completely different. It's a pretty lonely feeling... Less than a month now until my surgery. It's a pretty big deal. I keep getting asked if I'm nervous, or excited, or scared. The truth is, I don't know. I remember having a dream about the day of my surgery, and right before they were going to take me into the OR, I felt my heart drop into my stomach and all I could think to do was ask for about 5 more minutes. Then I woke up. No closure... I spoke to someone who had the same procedure done as me. He said that he had to be awake for the procedure because he has a bad reaction to anesthesia (he basically told me, "I kinda...die."), so right before they were about to cut, he asked if "[Is] now a bad time to say I've changed my mind?" He said the surgeon gave him a really dirty look. Some people just don't have a sense of humor. On a more serious note, I'll probably feel that way right up until they put me out for the procedure. Whenever I think about waking up without a leg, I get that oh-so-familiar sinking feeling in my gut. But, I'm not backing down...or up...or maybe sideways...? No backsies, I guess is what I'm trying to say. I made my decision, and I'm sticking to it. Come this time next month, I'll be laid up in the hospital with one less leg to stand on... Heh. I made myself lol.
That feeling when you heat up some chicken nuggets then open the fridge... only to find that there's NO MORE Bull's Eye BBQ sauce!
YAY!!! I finally got my laptop!!!!!! Also got a Wifi router so I can be on the computer in my room!!!!!
IDK if my thoughts should be posted here. I have nights of deep inner thoughts that get pretty damn philosophical... I'd probably never be able to convey it in text. But if I could, this page would be covered in my thoughts... Some of which may not even make sense... Anyway. My most current thought: Why the flip is it only 9:30 pm and I'm tired! I do not feel like I should be this early... then again my sleep schedule has been entirely out of wack so meh...
Nice! Heheh, that was a lot of build-up to a very average and regular thought. I gt what you mean, though. Most people probably have more private thoughts than they would care to share.
Truthfully? I've been feeling oddly sadistic lately and dark minded lately. I'm not talking about when I'm in my Chrysalis mindset either. I've been feeling, darker inside. I've been feeling my sanity slip. There have been things that have lately driven me to damn near madness out of anger. It has a lot to do with a friend of mine who has been nothing but a freeloading jerkoff. He rarely contributes to the groceries and has almost outright taken over my apartment room, even though he has his own apartment which he neglects. Even worse, he expects me to make sure his nearly abandoned place is clean for inpections, when really my apartment is the highest priority in all reality. Not mention that lately he has been *squee!*ing and moaning about stupid *squee!*. "Oh, I got a cup full of soda thrown at me! Oh, I can't find a job because the stupid manager always hired the less skilled person! Oh, I hate this stupid town!" The list goes on. What's worse is that he is now bagging on my good friend who is in a deep financial situation. He claims that my good friend is draining me of my money, when it's really him who does. He hates on my Good Friend fursuit just because I WAS MORE THAN WILLING TO HELP PAY FOR IT, yet he thinks that my good friend was pushing it on me. Not to mention this friend has also been hogging up my TV with his games to the point that my good friend and me cannot even play our own games or watch TV period at all hardly. I think I'm being driven insane by this so called friend. I am having sadistic thoughts right now because I wanna see him taken down quite a few pegs. He acts like he is all high and mighty, like he cannot do any wrong, yet makes my good friend look like the bad guy. Guess who is the REAL bad guy here. *sighs* God, I need to resolve this soon so I can move on with my life...
If he's that bad, why not just kick his ass to the curb? Sounds like a whole lot of unnecessary drama.
Don't you think I'd like to chew his ass out right now? I cannot because he is away. But when he is returns, there is a reckoning. I tried once before nicely, warning him about what he has been doing, but it has gone unheeded. Now I have no choice but to lay him out on his bad behavior. He has his own apartment and this time, I'm making it clear that he IS NOT staying at my place any longer. He is welcome to visit still but, he isn't living here with me. I already moved all his stuff down to his place that he has had in my place for a while, including his precious PS4, which I swear he is obsessed with. Especially since he does nothing but play games on it all the *squee!*ing time, on MY tv during the day.
I have felt the same way about my new job for some time. At the end of the day, I am working at a job requiring an Associate's degree for a salary on par with that of a public sector janitor (after factoring in the exorbitant, non-union benefit premiums). The stress of the job is unrivaled (no real training, "feast or famine" hours, on call, etc.). There are some union HVAC shops out there that actually pay and train workers (high wages, 5 year apprenticeships, etc.), but they are so corrupt that you need to know someone to get hired. I have noticed a fair deal of turnover in the short time I have worked here. I suppode it is easy for this employer to take advantage of me, given that virtually no one is going to hire an HVAC technician without 5+ years of experience. I am going to try to get an onsite maintenance/HVAC mechanic job at a hospital or in the public sector instead.
