Heh, interesting story! As for the "squick", yeah, thats pretty much true. I used to be "squick"-y about everything. Before I discovered my own sexuality, I was actually terrified of homosexuality. Go figure, eh? Regardless, it can be hurtful when people are upfront about it. For example, I've been called everything, from disgusting to irrational to... less nice words. My self esteem was pretty low at one point, and I occasionally get suicidal when someone says/does something particularly hurtful (I'm VERY sensitive, unfortunately). Nothing too bad has really happened yet (haven't ever been physically harmed by anyone due to my sexuality; emotionally is another thing entirely, however). The worst that happened was the threat of being kicked out of the house. But overall, I'm very happy! I have superb friends, a boyfriend, as well as ponies! PONIES! EVERYWHERE!
Well, I figure it's about time I said this, after being pressured by Rolf (Saikyo), and I'm pretty sure Saikyo already told ePONYmous in his Skyping last night. And I guess I'll return here with this. I'm gay. Yeppers, that's right. And I completely feel the pain of those who are being harrassed every day for being so. Almost every day at school, I'm called "*squee!*got" or "Freak". And to be quite honest, it kind of hurts, especially since they are all human beings as I am. Being judged as a freak because of my sexuality is extremely annoying. It doesn't affect me as much as some people, because I'm just used to it by now. I feel insulted by the sheer idiocy of mankind when it comes to sexuality. I also feel sorry for anyone else in my position. Me, I just shrug it off and keep moving. I can't change who I am, and the idiots who poke fun at me can't change how I feel about myself. I can't really speak for anyone else though. I'm pretty stern for someone my age.
I'm happy that you're open and proud of it. I hope society overcomes their ignorance and apprehension of sexual preference. In the end, I view it as irrelevant to judgement, but useful to understand a person when becoming friends. Therefore, people should not be alienated by it, but rather, drawn to knowing for the sole purpose of understanding them better. Perhaps you will inspire others to overcome the obstacles that you have.
Hello again thread. How are you? I hope you're fine. I'm not fine. Its night again. My boyfriend went offline, most of my friends are sleeping and, once again, I find myself miserable. I feel like I'm never going to be accepted for my sexuality, like I'm just some sort of disgusting... thing to be shunned because of it. All I do is love, and all I get is hate for it. Why? Why does the world work this way? Can 51% of America really be wrong about sexuality? Am I really just a disgusting, irrational, damned, evil little *squee!*got? I'm starting to feel more and more that its all true. I hate myself, I hate everything about me at this point. I'm just utterly worthless. I could kill myself and no one would care, because I'm just a disgusting, horrible, bisexual *squee!*... Everyone hates me, even my own family. Why am I so worthless? What did I do wrong? Why am I even bothering you people with my problems? I'm such an attention *squee!*... I'm sorry. I just had to post this. I'm just venting my feelings. Its how I really feel though. Beneath my happy visage I try to put up, this is pretty much how I feel all the time...
@Chapien... ...may not be the best way to start a post such as this... But really, stop questioning yourself and your beliefs... If you truly and firmly believe it, then there's no point to doubting, degrading or insulting yourself... I'm sure not everyone hates you. And those who do hate you... who cares what they think? They're, hopefully, not people of importance to you... and they are obviously, seeing as they would judge and berate someone because of sexual preference, not the type whose opinions should matter. I'm sorry to hear that, somehow, you were led to think this way about yourself... Just remember, there's no point in holding value to the beliefs of those who won't hold value to yours... I hope all goes well. Best of luck, then...
i would care! i would suffer! dont do it, you are way too important to throw your life on the trash can, i know that there is an ocean and a thousand miles between us and that we never chat properly but i care about you, just think on the good things, i know that its almost nothing, but i do care a lot about you, dont deny me the feeling of know that you are happy, please...
I'm sorry guys, I just had a breakdown last night. It happens sometimes. Just disregard my post, if you can.
Aww, I was thinking up a really lengthy and heartwarming post to give you D: Oh well, I need to go to bed anyway. :S But, manically depressed or not P), always try to remember that you're not alone. There are a *squee!*-ton of us horrible, twisted, disgusting *squee!*s out there, and I'm sure I'm not the only one willing to give you a hand if you're feeling down. :33 Oh. Also, you have a boyfriend. Be happyyy~ Some people would kill to have that. :U Not to be guilt-tripping or anything. That doesn't solve anything. Well, it does occasionally... but not now! D:
My opinions on suicide are - complex. But, I'll simplify it for you. When I was about 10 or 11, I considered suicide. If I had gone through with it, I'd never have discovered Ponies. Or met all of you wonderful people. That's the thing about life - you never know what's going to happen next, but it's never all bad.
Ja. Things are never as bad as people think. You may have a crappy life, ja, but does that mean you can just end it there, just because you feel bad? I think not. Seeking the proffesional's help is the way to go, ja.
how dear ye sir! i am 15 and british and i am not a chav,sure alot of teenagers are ridiculously dim,sure they hav less braincells then a goldfish,but to imply all british youths are bad is to be abhored NOW BEG FOR MERCY FROM WINTSON CHURCHILL PONY
What he said, but slightly different. Also, Congratulations in order to those who found inner strength to start openly admitting themselves, you rock woohoo.
Wow I haven't posted on Everypony in forever. And wow, the thread I posted in most is dead. I hate to commit the heinous crime of thread necromancy, but I have something valid to post relating to the topic and I'd rather not attention-horse by posting my own thread on it, so I'll just bump a really old thread that is relevant to what I'm talking about. I think. Eh, whatever. I'm having an issue relating to sexuality and coping in general. After a recent... episode I had on another pony related site (Ponychan) involving moderators, police, and sharp objects, I've decided I need to come out of the closet before I really do hurt myself over it rather then just threatening/almost hurting myself. That being said, I'm writing an e-mail to my dad to come out of the closet and fess up that I'm gay. I feel like its the right time, and I feel like I'd rather tell my father before my mother. In fact, I'd prefer that my mother never know, but that's not going to happen... I just need to tell someone in my family before I explode in frustration and fear. So I was wondering if anyone had a similar experience or if anyone could help me or if anyone had any advice at all? I have no idea what to say to him or how he'll react or anything. And I'm still sorry for ressurecting this dead thread.
Well, I'm bi. I do hate the stupid stereotype though that well... EXAMPLE: You are a brony if and only if and if you are gay or a girl. My Geometry teacher would be so proud. :3
Thread Necromancy is a common practice. Thanks for practicing this ancient art. I missed this thread. Yeah. Definitely, coming from myself, at least I can give definite confirmation on this.
After posting in this thread, I did some thinking, and I think what I said in the general chat thread should go here now. To be referred to as a heterosexual just seems so categorical, I don't really like it. I'm not attracted to men, but that's not a defining characteristic about me, and not a label I want to be a part of.
