Blogging Inside the Chimney

For those few who don't know, every sunday I will be trying to give out games. For more information, just watch the video showcasing one of the games I'm giving away this week, and answer the question (Preferrably on the youtube video page) that was in the video, Good luck everypony. (I would write up more about it but it's 2 in the morning here and I'm tired.) [video=youtube;cIcxzctyuvU]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIcxzctyuvU[/video]

So, as anyone whose been following my blogs knows, I haven't posted a blog in quite a long while. Last time I posted I found out I had the single largest amount of blog entries out of anypony on the site. Congratulations to me...

Anyway, so now I'm back, with potentially more but probably less nonsense and/or other things than before. I'll be starting doing youtube video's again, and will be answering any and all questions you have for me, no matter how random they are, in video blog format once a week, every saturday (Which will be friday for most of you). So start asking those questions.

In other matters, I've had quite a lot of school-work happening, which explains my absence from the rest of the world, but I've managed to get on top of it as best I can, so now I can come back here. You may celebrate if you so choose to.

In other other matters, my youtube channel has been offered to be a partner of ZoominTVgames. From my understanding, this is AWESOME!!! But I have no idea...apparently some of their stuff is a bit...something...what do you think of it?

Anyway, this was Caberea from the suicidal guide to survival saying goodbye, and goodnight...except it's probably morning for you or something...meh.

That's what I'm going to call the past 3-5 hours (Not exactly sure how long it was) that I spent waiting for anything to happen. Now, before It sounds like I'm complaining, which I technically am, I just wanna say that, for almost the entirety of today I did nothing but go on this site. Because I was just having so much fun. For which I want to thank all of you for. This place is such a joy to be on...When something's happening that is.

As I said, I've been bored out of my brains for the past few hours despite all the other stuff I could be doing. But i guess that's probably just because I'm so hyped for tomorrow when I'll hopefully get to have fun with everyone again.

In short, I freaking love this site when stuff's happening, but I dislike the fact that my time zone means I'm awake for when there isn't stuff happening (And probably asleep when there is as well).

I put this in the GCT so i may as well put it here too.

I'm going to be doing a borderlands 2 Lets Play in the future. But i need three other people to do it with. It's going to be on PC so you'll need steam and a legal version, and you'll also have to have some way to communicate (Mic on your PC or whatever will work).

But there's going to be a special challenge. Obviously we'll all have to pick a different vault hunter for this, but we'll also have to select a brand and type of weapons (eg. Maliwan, Sniper Rifle) That brand of that weapon are the ONLY guns you are allowed to use. If the gun dosen't come up, then you have to rely on your ability, melee, and grenades. The brand stuff dosen't apply to anything other than guns.

I like to call it the "profiency sponsorship challenge". Anybody want in?

I'm rather ashamed to admit that I was actually scared by this game...very ashamed actually.

[video=youtube;Yk3PeF33F5w]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yk3PeF33F5w&list=UU9KqyvqpfZhgg6L8XATIhGg&index=2[/video]
[video=youtube;LjS2CufT6pM]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjS2CufT6pM[/video]

For those of you who have seen my youtube channel you may have noticed there was a brief period where i had a facecam and no watermark on my videos. Well, that was while I was using Camtasia Studio 8, or rather the free trial of it. Frankly, the program was fantastic and I've been saving up money so that I can buy it. When it finally comes to paying it, I see the print for what it says I'm purchasing "One software key emailed to unlock free trial for immediate use."

So my question is, What the hell does that mean? Am I paying for a free trial? That doesn't make any sense, why would I pay for a trial that is FREE? Do they even know what free means?

Most importantly, this thing cost's $300 US, If I'm having to pay $300 dollars just so I can use this program for a trial period they can forget it. I don't have that kind of money and there's no way I'll be able to earn enough from my youtube channel in that time to make it worth the trial.

For some reason, I haven't been able to find a single thing telling me whether this thing is a one-time purchase or if your have to pay to use it.

If anyone has any information on this, it would be much appreciated. Either way this whole situation has made me very aggrivated and it helped to get it off my chest, thanks for reading.

Why did I feel the need to do a blog post just to say I'm back from my holiday trip.

Because of the following reasons:

1. I'm Caberea, I don't know why I do anything
2. That makes this my 75th blog post, meaning I'm 3/4's of the way to 100 posts.
3. "OHMIGOSH GUYS!!!, did you hear that Rexy won pony of the year? Cause i just saw now, and I'm soooo happy. Gratz Rexy, I knew you would win."

So I'm going to be away for a week, and as a consequence probably won't be able to post here unless they have internet access. So don't be surprised if you don't see me around for the next week.

"I'll miss you Everypony. Especially Rexy, It's only a brief time away, but without you it will seem like an eternity."

"...You won't be seeing me around here next week...not that I really care..."

Well here it is, Enjoy, and if you have any more questions (Which i hope you do) feel free to ask them, in fact, they can even be statements. Just anything goes.

[video=youtube_share;mVsGEdSDflE]http://youtu.be/mVsGEdSDflE[/video]

For those who have found it get lost in the GCT thread, here was my Pony of the year based downfall parody thing.

[video=youtube;_-rNJu75XVo]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-rNJu75XVo[/video]

And here's the other one

[video=youtube_share;jewrHMo7z3U]http://youtu.be/jewrHMo7z3U[/video]

So...for those of you who may of may not know that I do poetry. I do poetry. How do i do poetry? I don't know. Basically what i do, is not think. I just sit and write whatever the heck comes into my head, and then label it as poetry. This my friends, is modern "art".

I watch the lights go out to darkness in my room
The clock lets life tick on while lying in this tomb
Left here in times embrace it's ending here so soon
My sanity walks at the edge of the typhoon

Well i remember, at that place we used to go
You told me how we'd be together, how we'd always know
Every single small thing, about our lives, about each other
Yet now you leave me here, a broken man, Just one more lover

Why can't we see the same way?
Can't the lightning strike, and break these skies of grey?
Why can't we find words to say?
To break the silence.
To break the violence.
To stop this endless tortured day.

...The buck did i just write?

Have some Copypasta from the GCT because I'm too lazy to post it twice. Thank you Snow for this strange realisation you gave me, it made me feel really tingly inside.

Sorta...they're with me in my head. Not as in I imagine them in my head, but they are actually another part of me, a separate personality that takes over when needed. I guess I'm a personality too, though I'd like to consider myself the base personality. Sometimes I can't help but think that Cyanside and Shadow exist on a more physical plane. They're not real in the sense that I can reach out and touch them (though that would be so nice), but they're real in that they talk to me and help me in life (I wonder if it counts as cheating that I had Cyanside and Shadow help me during my exams).

Cyanside is also my dream-state (Or an Avatar, in my dreams). I seem to have some weird connection to my dreams, basically, if I get horribly injured in my dreams, I'll wake up to find myself minorly injured (Though once i woke up the a broken bone in my leg...so there's a degree to how far I can push it). Since Cyanside became my dream-state with Shadow to protect her, I've had no more severe injuries.

Just something a bit strange it occured to me, 9 years ago when I first started calling myself Caberea, I got 2 strange dream scars on my right shoulder that night, and had a dream of 2 beings, one light and one dark, whispering words of comfort and safety to me. They were too blurred to make out, but I can't help but wonder if that was Cyanside and Shadow...but they only made themselves truly known to me once I embraced the ways of love and kindness that this community had to offer, and so they took the shape of the community.

My gosh...I think this post has just taken me on a spiritual journey...time to post it up as my 70th blog post.

Either that, or my house is haunted. Yesterday night, I woke up at about 1:30 in the morning to go to the toilet, and everything was fine and stuff. Until I went to go back into my room...

You see, in between my room and the bathroom we have a corridor that opens into the main room (With just a door sized opening, no door), where we had our laundry hanging up on these racks. As i passed by that opening, one of the racks went flying towards me, but luckily hit the opening lengthwise, so i didn't get hurt. I turned the lights on to see if someone had broken in, but as you might have guessed there was nobody. However, there was a silhouette of something that stood in the kitchen (which is part of the room where we hang our laundry), which after just standing there for a few seconds, faded away into nothing.

Simply put, I'm scared. Either I've lost my sanity a bit more than usual, or there's something supernatural in my house that want's to kill me...or at least injure me or something. It's probably the former...hopefully...

Question Mark's gone, and though I feel sad about it. I know that he's got to take his own path through life, I just really hope that he will be okay. The world's harsh, and with the loss of his friends I'm really worried about his wellbeing...I'll miss you Questy...

But, on a slightly brighter topic. I'm not going to be leaving here anytime soon. This site and fandom/community is something special to me. I might have said a few things about it in the forums or earlier blogs, or chat, or I might have forgotten to say anything about it. I can't remember. But before I became a Brony, I was on the verge of suicide. There didn't seem to be any hope that the world would get better, and that all anybody cared about was themselves and making other people feel worse so that they could feel better.

Then I found this show, and through it, the community, a shining spark of light in the darkness. In a way, this community is the only thing keeping me going. I know it might be blowing everything out of proportion a bit, but from what I've seen in my life so far, this fandom seemed like the only hope for mankind. The rest of the world seems to just keep on getting darker, to keep on trying to drown us in sorrow because we try to be who we are. But thanks to this community I know that there's hope, and there are still people out there who try to be kind.

I guess what I want to say is...thank you everypony, you've all been really kind to me while I've been here, and I ain't going to be leaving anytime soon. Also, I just realised that I've been a member here for more than a whole year. Though my post count certainly wouldn't suggest it. So thank's for having me, and I'll continue to try and contribute to this bright light of hope that is our fandom/community.

Oh yeah, I forgot to do this earlier, but I'll be doing Q & A videos now every week (or trying to). Just ask me a question down below, (Or private message me if you want to remain anonymous) and I'll make sure to answer it. I'll have your questions answered this Friday. Until then, get asking/thinking up them. ASK ME ANYTHING!!!