Pseudo's blog

Now, I'm usually not the type of guy who will cry over every little thing, and not saying anything wrong about anyone who does, I'm not one to judge, but I had a dream about someone I care about dying and seeing how I'd react to the event of their death. Didn't get to see how this person died and it wasn't horribly descriptive, just remember going to the funeral and then watching myself (the whole dream was in third-person) for 2 days after the funeral in my dream.

Odd thing was, through the first half of the dream, I had no sense that it was a dream, like I was actually there, but through the last half of the dream, my real self(that was still asleep mind you) was thinking very loudly "Its a dream, wake up" but it was like my dream self wouldn't let me wake up and forced me to watch the "coping process" for a total of 2 days in the dream, then I finally woke up. Went down the hallway and found the person that died just fine, sitting on her laptop playing around on a game site(which at that point made me cry, but I guess that just shows I have humanity still lol).

Only thing I'm glad about is it wasn't one of those descriptive dreams because when I have one of those, they usually come true (which makes me often wonder, "Why can some people have dreams like that while others cannot?"). I find it funny that I can watch/play horror, thriller, and gore movies/games and barely flinch but something like someone I care deeply about dying gets to me (and kills my sleep for the rest of the night!).

Back to working on that first pony siggy