Now I don't know how successful this will be or if it even gets taken advantage of but I know that many bronies, including myself, have issues, whether they be depression or what have you and I would like this to be a general thread for any issues, whether small or big, to be resolved in a conversational manner. I've wanted to start this for a few weeks to see if people feel would feel a certain thread can help with issues specifically and I feel today is a good day because I myself need some kind of solution. I have a very philosophical/psychological mind and would like to help some people and have others help others as well, including myself. I've been struggling with depression and the first time I watched ponies, things got much better. I've been in a good mood generally for quite a few months now but specifically today I all of a sudden hit a huge sadness. I don't know what prompted this but today I've been walking around feeling like I have death hanging over my head. It's the worst I've felt in months, maybe even a year. I had to hold back tears twice because I wasn't about to cry in public for no reason. I'm just feeling miserable and I think it's because I feel worthless to the amount of work I have this semester. That's not the whole issue, I'm sure, but probably a bigger case then I think. If anyone can share some ideas for trying to increase mood or positively take on massive amounts of homework, I would greatly appreciate it. And if anyone has a problem they wish to be commented on for advice feel free to leave it.
I have: Bipolar (with severe depressive episodes, including suicidal thoughts the other day) Mild schizophrenia Amnesia Insomnia Paranoid Personality Disorder Avoidant " " Dependent " " Schizotypal " " To me, talking/chatting one on one is more helpful, and as such, get a lot of help on skype from friends, but not together as a group. I just got out of a very deep depressive episode, which included the suicidal thoughts, but I'm absolutely fine now, on top of the world. I hate the things I have to put up with and go through, especially relying on friends to help, which almost resulted in losing a relationship. I'm always willing to help those in need, in any situation. if you're not confident enough to talk here. Be sure to talk to me on skype! (xaniith)
obligatory listing of my problems here: Depression suicidal thoughts/tendencies bipolarity daily nervous breakdowns nervous twitches I usually hate talking about my problems with anyone, i just sorta feel like im putting a burden on them, making them care about something that isnt worth it. But idk, i just feel like i can tell anyone on here anything, just cuz i know a bunch of you have gone thru the same thing. However, for some reason, im really good at giving advice to everyone but myself. so feel free to PM me on here, or skype message me (though i never really check my skype) at cpl.puddingpop. and to anyone whos reading this who feels like what we all felt, just message someone, any of us. we've all been through it, and are more than happy to help. Itll get better, i promise you that. It always does
You sound stressed, not depressed. A good friend of mine recently explained that he viewed depression as a cycle where you're simply lacking happiness. You're not sad, but rather, it's more of a middle ground that sinks to the low end without going into sadness. I don't view depression as a disease or a disorder like people like to label it as. I consider it something that everyone experiences at some point or another. Since it's different between people, some might not even realize it. Perhaps you should set goals for your work. Divide it by something recognizable where it makes a good stopping point, but also a good milestone.
I used to suffer from chronic depression, that got so bad I standard-issue had to see a councillor about it. The councillor kind of helped as someone to talk to, because it's a person you don't emotionally (like friends and family) know, which means that you literally feel free to share anything with them. Trust me, that's a great relief, but I'm sure it would work the same just fine with a family friend or, if you go to school or college, a trusted teacher/lecturer. Luckily, I managed to get out of my gloom and doom attitude and I did it, quote Pinkie Pie, by smiling. Literally, all I did was started to look at life and think, "Sure I've got exams and coursework, but I can handle that if I put in the effort." And also ,"I don't care about what people think about me, I'm me!" I know that sounds INCREDIBLY cheesy, but I now feel like a little glimmer of sunshine in a dark world, and it feels amazing. Don't let anyone or anything stop you from doing what you want to do, we all have the same kind of minds, it's what we DO with them that counts. Money's an issue for your dreams? Don't sweat it, get paid to do some work over a period of time, and you'll even feel good with yourself for working so hard. Dreams are always achievable, but you've got to believe you can do it. I never thought I would be skilled enough to play a guitar, but now I can do it I'm proud with myself. Live life with a spring in your step and a smile on your face and it will never bring you down as long as you stay positive.
I agree with Aynine. I think you are stressed. I am also stressed and i am going through the same thing that you are going through. At the moment I am over worked. My days are just so busy and I hardly get a chance just to sit down and relax. Heck the only times that I do get a break is when I eat meals and spend time on the forums which lately I haven't been able to spend to much time on. I get home late each day from sport, I have 3 exams to learn for each day and I have to cope with homework, my musical instrument and there a a huge project that I have to do, not to mention the Circus act I have to do on Thursday which I haven't gotten a chance to practice on with my group. I am really stressed and find myself having little panic attacks when I realise how much I have to do in so little time. I'm the kind of person that cannot live without at least an hour of leisure time. But when I don't get it I become like this. So far I haven't found a solution that works for me... I am just so worried...but I know that everything will be fine once my exams are over...
I've got it easy; Self Obsession Massive Ego Must be the Center of Attention Over-Confident Slightly Kleptomaniacal (I don't hoard, mostly to see if i can. I generally put stuff back, to see if i can too.) I've never really been depressed. I consider myself fairly mentally stable, i do have mood shifts from time to time, and i can be extremely irritating because of my EgotisticalCenterofAttentionAllthetime things. But hey, that's me. I've found that when it comes to depression, or anything really, that there are always a hundred reasons not to do something. You can stand here all day and tell me why we can't do something, or you can do it. You can spend all day talking about the what ifs, and you've gone and wasted a whole day of not living life, and doing things. I'll also quote another philosophy of mine: "What do you care what they think?" Be you. If they don't like it, why would you want to be near people who only like the person you pretend to be? The Poetic pony is right.
I will list mine. (With humorous descriptions) Asbergers.(Cant think of anything here) + OCD.(Must watch PONIES!) + Depression.(LET ME WALLOW IN SELF PITY!) + Superiority Complex.(YOU'RE ALL IDIOTS) + Two sided personality.(Hi! Go away.) + Anger issues.(Got nothing for this one) + Violent tendencies.(I will strangle you with your own intestine!) + Occasional Hallucinations.(Pretty colors...) = COMPLETELY INSANE!!!
I don't really if I have anything wrong with me, but that's not the point of the thread. But if you want to know, here's my assumptions (hardly conditions): - Mild OCD - Perfectionist - Conscious of self image - Short Term Memory Loss Anyway, it has already been suggested that you are indeed stressed. However, being stressed isn't any less of a problem then depression. I would advise you to keep in a positive mental state with the work you receive, I know all too well how it feels to have too much work. I took 3 of the most work demanding subjects for my options in school (Art, IT, and Graphics) and as I don't regret it now as most of it is done, I did when I got it. All you need to do is think about the future. Think about how great it'll feel when it's all done, and that is what gets me through my work, well that, and Wikipedia. This song may be part of a Monty Python skit, but I follow it's message and see past the comedy: [youtube]WlBiLNN1NhQ[/youtube]
I suffer from mild depression (only staved of by Smile played on a loop), anxiety and insomnia (hence the 3am posts) as well as a whole truckful of other issues, and have done for around 5 years. Ponies have been one of the best things to help to be honest
