Venting

If you don't want to hear a rant, ignore this.

I don't have many friends at school. This is in because of my non-theism, being an card-carrying nerd, lack of physical strength, among other things.

I would like to note this rant may offend some Christians out there; I'm not saying all Christians are like this, just the ones at my school. I deeply apologize if you are offended.

I openly admit to being an atheist. I just don't believe there's any actual proof he exists. If there's some all-knowing, omnipotent force that can do anything, where was he when the Black Plague killed millions? Where was he when the Great Depression struck and many people were living in poverty? Basically, because of theses reasons, I have a posse of intolerant jocks following me around trying to preach me about their fictional story. What makes it worse is my parents don't support me. Once my dad called me, and I quote, "A satan-loving atheist." You'd think a man who graduated 16 years of college would know that I don't even believe in Satan. And my mom tried to guilt me by saying stuff like, "It's my fault." And, "I'm sorry." I honestly believe that if there were no Ned Flanders Christians like the aforementioned people, the world would be a much better place. I'm also a member of the Gay Pride Club at my school. I'm not gay myself, but I have friends that are, and it pains me to see them get made fun of because some book written 2000 years ago says it's wrong.

People in my area are generally very homophobic, and don't usually have a sense of what being homosexual is. I'm going to branch off into a story related to this real quick. All my other friends were on vacation except for this one girl named Lauren. She's really into high-stakes bets on video games. So, out of boredom, I made a bet with her where the winner would choose the losers punishment. I allowed her to choose the game we would play, Counter-Strike: Global Offensive. I'm not too great at FPS games, but I agreed anyway. I ended up losing, and my punishment was having to have my hair and make-up done by her. I'm a man of my word and a bit adventurous, so I didn't back out. I went over to her house, got it over with, and you couldn't recognize me; she did a good job of hiding the male features of my face. She took a picture to remember, but while she was helping me remove the hair products, make up and etc, she left her phone in attended , where her older brother, who hangs out with the people who bully me, texted the image to himself from her phone, where he texted it to his friends. Back to the main point, people at my school use, "gay" to peg someone as feminine if not actually homosexual. So now I get harassed for that too.

I have an IQ of 164, and I usually unwilling drive people away with my know-it-all attitude. The few that can put up with this include my great older brother, and my group of eight friends. I'm usually picked on for this and the perpetrators know I get ticked when my intelligence is insulted. I can't help it, I am infinitely smarter than these people, but have no way to prove it. I often get asked really non-sensical questions by people I don't even know, and when I explain to them that I don't know, I usually get, "I thought you were smart Daniel."

Which leads me to my god-complex. I guess growing up around people who constantly said I was highly intelligent led me to think I was better than everyone else. I have a hard time admitting I was wrong, and I usually make people feel bad about themselves without meaning to. If I could change anything about myself, it would be this.

I made the mistake of of playing League of Legends during my free period at school. (It's a pro-device school.) One of the school bullies saw me and his clique have been on my tail about being a nerd ever since.

Another thing, once my Coach for P.E called me stupid because I couldn't hit the birdie in badminton. I was born with depth perception issues; it's not my fault I can't see how far away the stupid birdie is. Which leads to another thing. I'm bad at sports. And at my school, if you're bad at sports, you get picked on.

I have considered asking my parents to move, but the high school I go to is in the top 20 best schools in the states, and I don't want to harm my education by going to a different school (Which are usually bad in my area, with some exceptions.)

Sorry if I sounded pretentious there, and you have every right to tell at me if you think any of this is stupid or if it affendedded you.