Acting On Regrets

Biggest regret? Well, you seemed so honest about it so I might as well.

I do believe it's time to come out with this. Couple of years ago, you could have wandered past me on the street and wouldn't take a second glance, I was like a shadow, just blending in with the rest of the crowd. A grey person in a grey world. MY biggest regret was attempting suicide. Everyone I knew was dissapointed, my own parents were dissapointed and hell I was dissapointed. But, I just couldn't go on in a world where nobody stood out. Life goes on, if you're not a genius you live a normal, pointless life then die. That was my thinking.

Then I found ponies. I'm not joking, ponies LITERALLY saved my life. I started to re-unlock the creative side of my mind, began drawing, writing poetry, and started playing happier songs on my guitar. I made sure that the first happy song I knew how to play was "Mr Blue Sky" by ELO. Now, I try to stand out as much as possible. A spring in my step, brony shirts, always a smile on my face and a way of being tolerant between the most hateful of people. No-one would be surprised if you saw me physically skipping down the street. Want to know why? Because I just don't care about pressure and judgement from peers anymore. That's my second biggest regret, not doing that sooner, so tell people you're a brony, be who YOU want to be before YOU regret it. I stand out like Pinkie Pie at the Grand Galloping Gala now, and I always remember that

I AM SOMEBODY, AND THAT SOMEBODY IS A BRONY

 

Yo we heard you had some regrets so we put a regret in your regret so you can regret while you regret. The word loses all meaning if you type it too many times.

 

The only regret I have is how I let what other people think I should do get the best of me.

How'd it end? Me being depressed, like, right now.

 

Life is too short to be depressed bro, go watch some Ponies STAT!!

Smile, you'll live longer, cuz I won't have to hunt you down with my Pinkie Pie

 

I've nether had any huge regrets, one of my biggest ones was when I forgot to change the batteries in my GBA, which is nothing compared to anyone else. If I did regret doing something and I felt really bad afterwards, I'd do my best to fix it. Paraphrasing what Thunderhorse said, why spend life regretting when you can spend it enjoying?

 

My biggest regret was in high school. This was 5 years ago in my senior year and I was known to skip 5th and sixth periods occasionally. But the worst of it was that I had a habit of oversleeping and missing my first 2 periods of class, the latter of which was symphonic band. Long story short my band director was not happy, and I fully understand now how badly I had screwed up. I was first chair in my section and because I had missed so many rehearsals I was not allowed to play in the final concert of my senior year. I learned an important lesson about punctuality and attendance from that. Seeing my classmates on that stage from the audience and not playing with them made my heart ache. Ever since then I have never again missed or been late to a rehearsal, concert, class or commitment. I always arrive where ever I'm supposed to be a little bit early now, and I always get up when alarm goes off even if I don't want to. Always be where you're supposed to be and be there on time!

 

Regrets I have many of, I've harmed many people in my past and couldn't really even take the time to go back and apologize to them, though if the opportunity comes up I will. Things I've done that hurt myself. Many years of my life wasted by hitting the bottle every night. Money has been wasted because of stupid things I have done, broken, bought when it was unneaded. All things that if I had not done I would be in a better position now. What is done is done though and at least I have learned to not do those things again. I no longer drink at all and I'm much more careful on what I spend my money on.

 

Actually I kind of regret being a bit too silly/confident/not-shy (can't think of the word so I'll just describe it). I used to be quite shy and boring before I moved school in year 7. I said to myself that I had to be more confident and fun at my new school. Sure it has gotten me more friends but not many of them can take me seriously straight away, including the teachers.

It's not that bad though.

 

My biggest regret? You mean, like, ever?

Wow. This is spoiler'd. Please read at your own discretion. The paragraph below is very personal, so I understand if you don't want to read it. In summation: someone hurt me psychologically, and it has caused some serious self-esteem issues.

Spoiler: Here:

I dated this girl. She was older than me. One day, she forced me into an uncomfortable situation. I caved. I consented to sex that I did not want to have. The worst part is, people have a tendancy to say things like "Boys don't get abused", or "Boys are supposed to be stronger than girls." Well, I'm mentally a very weak person, no matter my physique. It's a flaw I've tried to overcome, and thankfully I've made some progress, but sometimes when the topic of intercourse comes up, I feel very uncomfortable. I am in the process of turning what was an awful experience into character building one. I need to be nothing like that girl, and respect both people's boundaries and their feelings. Still, this is not easy. Some days I feel terrible about myself, and I hear her saying "Boys are supposed to like this." I am, despite that, recovering. I don't consider myself a victim, because even if I was, I don't allow myself to be that now. I want to be defined by who I am now, not who I was.

If you're wondering, I did break up with that girl (of course...), and I've been doing better since. I've found great release through art and writing. Having friends around who care about me helps, too. I don't usually talk to people about this (I have, don't worry) because I don't want that experience to be an essential part of who I am. I want what I've learned to stick with me, and I want to use that to help other people. It's really hard to open up like this... but I hope you guys understand why I had to at least mention it here.

I think it's important to move on. Don't let the bad times define you.

 

This is weird for me. I can't thing of anything I regret. I can't regret my parents not being around, I can't regret my bad realtionships. Those things aren't my fault. Should I regret being the shy reserved person I was, it made me who I am right now. Should I regret some of my friends abandoning me. That's their lose not mine.

Do I regret my life up to this point? If I do I regret being me and everything I have.

So I say that I have none. Some people might not believe me,but I can't think of one.

-- Sent from my Palm Pre using Forums

 

The only thing I regret is not being who I wanted to be and not doing the things I wanted to do because of what others would think of me, this was during the first 3 years of high school. I snapped out of it at the start of the last 2 years of school, when I just got sick of being a person I wasn't and realised how pointless it was. Now I just don't give a *squee!*, people can think what they like, I just regret the fact that I'll never get those 3 years back.

 

Oh god, things i regret. where to begin haha

I'd say my biggest regret is living my life the way ive been living it for the last couple years. For every different set of people i associate with, im a completely different version of me. There isnt a single person who knows exactly who i am, because ive become so good at adjusting my personality to make people like me. Ive completely sold myself out, and its been eating me from the inside. I've been heavily contemplating suicide for most of the past couple years, because im sick of being someone I'm not. MLP has helped hella, thats probably the reason im still alive at this point, and its been inspiring me to not care what others think, but i still dont think ill ever be able to be myself. Because myself isnt good enough for the rest of the world.

but in the meantime, i want to thank all of ya. you're sorta the reason im still here, and even if i dont know any of you personally, i feel like i can actually be myself here. its helped a lot, knowing i can be the real me somewhere and not get judged

 

I used to have regrets, like you. Then I took a paradigm shift to the head.
What's done is done, and time spent wallowing in self-pity is time not fixing the aftermath.

 

Believe me, you can. Being yourself is a struggle, but it's a struggle worth fighting.
There'll always be people who respect you for living the person you truly are, or at least for trying to do so.
It's a slow process, but as long as you don't lose hope it can only improve.

Because you ARE good enough for the rest of this world. And not everbody has to like you.

Right now I'm talking as much to myself as I'm talking to you. It's still true, though.

You know what this calls for? A song.
http://youtu.be/ErXivsPhkvk

 

I wouldn't consider it selling yourself out. I change to my friends' personalities a lot because my friends are different. We still share common interests, but I don't see what's bad about it. I don't think many of us are 100% ourselves around most people. I can read people extremely well and make it easier to become friends, so I suppose changing is just a part of who I am.

 

My Regrets? Well i Tend to live a life without regrets but I find that impossible for everypony. I do have a few but one is Kept as a Family secret and I'm forbidden to talk about to others then my family. The other Regrets i have, are dealing with college. I hate making Stupid choices and skipping classes a lot. For that, it hurts to wake up sometimes and another thing about it is lying to my Family...Especially my Mother. I hate lying to her the most and making an excuse like "Class was Cancelled." or "Teacher never showed up."

As for now, I'm done making stupid choices that leave me in sorrow. I'm want to make my mother proud of me and the rest of my family as well. I just got to stop listening to the other side of me and pretend he's not there.

 

"As you grow older, you'll find the only things you regret are the things you didn't do."
- Zachary Scott

You did the right choice, now you don't regret

 

At first it was like that for me, but it just got worse and worse. Ill say or do things i completely dont believe in, just so people will like me. i can be cruel, completely cold, if i think itll make me more "popular" in whatever group im in. Im completely two faced, a liar, and just a general jackass to a lot of people i used to be sorta friends with. Ive honestly become everything i hated and promised i wouldnt become back when i started high school a couple years ago.

And then i come home, and im a complete wreck. Ive got enough emotional and mental disorders to make a therapist salivate: depression, suicidal tendencies, nervous twitches, complete mental breakdowns, mood swings, etc. I hate who i am. Im in the closet, in the stable (never thought id use that phrase seriously), and i dont tell anyone, save for my best girl friend, that im so messed up. i sorta just dont want the attention.


but whatever, im just some kid on the internet.