I didn't really want to say this, as I don't like seeking attention, but I guess I should. I need to give you a bit of a backstory first. For those of you who don't know, which is nearly all of you, I was born with a knot in the tube leading from my left kidney. This knot means that liquid enters the kidney, but doesn't leave as easily and builds up. This makes the kidney swell up like a balloon, to the point of tearing. When this happens, which is roughly once every fortnight, the pain is undescribable. It's been compared to childbirth, and it can last for hours. The last time I was rushed into hospital, it was the constant pain for about 10-12 hours. I've yet to experience anything worse than that day. Anyway, this condition, which is called a Pelviureteric Junction Obstruction (PUJ Obstruction), really interferes with my life. I constantly have to monitor what I drink, as drinking too much of any liquid, even water, can bring on the pain. I'm not even allowed to touch things like cola, tea, coffee or alcohol. As such, I've been talking to my hospital about surgery to correct this. I've been having scans and check ups for about a year now, maybe more. I forget, it's been going on that long. Anyway, today I finally had the chance to talk to my consultant about the surgery, and what would happen. It wasn't exactly the news I wanted to hear. Basically, because the type of surgery available is very rare, it's not the most fail safe. The bottom line is, there is a significant chance that if I opt to have the surgery, I won't be waking up. Obviously hearing something like that completely shakes your world. Yet, considering how dominant the condition is over my life, I've decided to go for it anyway. Now, my consultant has asked me to think about this first, as this is a massive decision. It's not just a 'there's always a chance something might go wrong' kind of thing, he made it very clear that the chance of things not going according to plan are significant. However, I've made my mind up, and I'd rather risk it, than living in certain pain for the rest of my life. Now that I've bored you with the details, I can say what I really wanted to say. I didn't write all this for attention, for sympathy, for anything like that. I'm not asking you all wish me luck or anything like that. I just want you to know, that no matter what happens, this entire community has been one of the greatest things I've ever had the pleasure of being a part of. I could never have imagined how loving and friendly a group of people could become, but you showed me alright. I'm serious, the pony community is a huge one, and one generally loving, but EveryPony.com as exceeded all of the others. I've never been as far into something as I have this place, and I'm proud to say that. You've all taught me things, things that have made me a better person. I love this place. I love everything about it. I love the people, the vibe, the layout even, I love you all. I mean every word of that. Before I came here, I was a closed person. I bottled everything up, I closed the entire world off, essentially becoming emotionally dead. But, all those emotions built up, and with extreme clinical depression, my life was bad to say the least. I had friends, material wealth, all those things, but without happiness they mean nothing. That's what this place did for me, it made me happy. For that, I seriously can't thank you enough. The person I am today is because of what I've learned from this place. I feel like I can open up to you guys. For the first time in my life, I can genuinely say without compromise, I am happy. Very happy at that. And it's not just me. I've seen some wonderful things unfold here. The recent event with the chat, where a suicidal user was actually talked out of it by the immense love you guys showed, was astonishing. That summed this place up really. I have never been prouder of this community than that day. Every single one of you, I have everything to thank for. Because we are all wonderful, wonderful people. Literally, every single one of you has improved my life more than anything else. I just want you to know that, from the admins to those who just joined us. Every last one of you. I can't stress that enough. I would list you all, but I can't. I'd be here forever. But honestly guys, everyone from Grey, who does a smashing job here, to Foxy, who is a pleasure to have here, to Zephyr Wind, who is such a nice person, to Pinkie Pie (Rasii), who is the friendliest person I've met, to the new users who I haven't met yet, but I know will be just as loving and friendly. Sorry If I missed you out, but there are just so many of you, and you all mean so much, I just said the first things coming out of my head (to be honest, this entire post is just a surge of emotion). Thank you guys, thank you all for making this the greatest community I've ever known. Now, sorry if I got a bit melodramatic there, just been a mad day to say the least. Emotions running high, all that stuff. It's worth stating that the odds are in favour of the surgery going to plan, but the odds of me kicking the bucket are too high to ignore. I'm not saying what they are, because I don't want any of you worrying. I just want you to know, that you're awesome. Yep, you, reading this right now. Of course, I'll still be around the forums, there's no date set for the surgery yet. I'm just putting this out there because 1) I've just learnt it myself, so I might as well share it 2) I kind of had a surge of emotion 3) I probably would have forgotton, and if I did pop my clogs, it probably would have seemed like I just up and left, and that's not cool! I'd never leave ponyville hanging! Okay, mega rant over now. Not sure what to say now. Emotions have settled down a bit. I will still be around the forums for a long time to come, it's just there may, MAY, be a point where I'm not on anymore. Don't worry about that though, seriously. I don't like people feeling sorry for me. I'd rather you all be happy that I could remind you of how wonderful this place can be! If you're going to take anything from this MONSTER of a post, let it be this: Love and happiness don't cost anything, so let's share it with everybody!
I'll support you either way *hugs* Just remember you have a whole community at your side to support you.
I don't really know what to say. I really hope can get your surgery soon, and that it is successful!! We'll all be with you!
you really made my cry, I don't want to lose you, you're really good person. also I know how much trouble you had with that knot, so I support any decision you make. Remember, we'll always he here for you *hugs tightly* I really hope surgery goes well and that you'll have long and happy life.
Although the most I've said to you is Hi in the chat, I wish everything goes well for you when you do have the surgery! As the others have said, everyone is here.
Good luck, Lupr... I'm sure the operation will be a success! Like Snowy and Muesli said before me, everyone will be more than happy to support you. I hope you get better soon, and all goes well, with the surgery, and all... Everypony wouldn't be the same without you or anyone else gone, too. *hug* I'll be hoping to hear good news soon!
Good Luck my friend and I hope the Surgery will be Success We all support you so I'm giving my big support to you*hug*
I'm....tearing up. I never used to do that before coming here to Everypony... Please don't take this the wrong way guys, I still love you all immensely! Lup, you're honestly one of two people on this board that I've really gotten close to. I can't even remember when we first talked but you instantly became a friend to me. I am so similar to you in many ways, I think you remember us talking about that. You helped me out of my depression with your kind words, and I'll never forget that. Just seeing you list my name off along the true great people like Rasii and Foxy means a lot to me. I just wanted to say that... But why am I getting all dramatic for?! You're not leaving us and I KNOW that surgery will be a success. Argue with me all you like, but that's what I believe. I'll see you around Lup! ^_^
Good luck. I can't really say anything else, since I'm still kind of in shock from a crap-ton of stuff happening this week. And then I find out about this... I need to think for a while. No way in hell are we NOT going to miss you Lupr. Don't forget that. If you need any help, just let us know. Just check in every once in a while; don't leave us hanging man. Let us know how you feel n' when you feel it. I really hope you turn out okay. You've got so many friends like Zephyr, something I wasn't blessed with at any point in my life. But this isn't about me; it's about you. Keep on fighting, Lupr. Never give up without a fight. If you were to go... I'm not sure what a lot of people would do here. I've grown rather close to everyone, especially Zephyr, Snowy, and you, Lupr. You three are the kindest people I've ever even "Met", even when I was just "the new guy", you guys were the kindest to me, even if everyone was kind in the first place. EVERYONE on this site hopes for the best for you, Lupr. To see you go will be very depressing to many, MANY people. I know it will be a success; and I know that you WILL be okay. I love you guys (In a totally brony way) so much. To see any one of you go would be heartbreaking. Alright, I need to get a tissue; my eyes are starting to go dry.
I... I just don't know what to say. I'm actually tearing up a bit right now, and that doesn't happen often when I read something. I'm hoping for the best for you, Luprony. That sounds awful what you've had to go through. Even though I can't personally relate, I think, under the same circumstances, I probably would have made the same decision. Knowing there is something that can be done to rid yourself of this pain is very tempting. I know we've never met in person and only know each other on here, but know that I and everyone else here are with you in spirit and we will be supporting you all the way. You and I have only interacted with each other a few times, but all of those times were special. You are a good person and I hate hearing about the suffering that such good people have to endure. It's not fair. Being emotional about this is definitely understandable. I've never had someone tell me that there's the possibility of never waking up again, but just reading that from you leaves a sinking feeling in my stomach. If I could physically be there, I would. I'm sure anyone else here would say the same. I'm not going to be a blind-optimist and ignore the risk that you are taking, but I'm wishing you the best and hope that the surgery goes well. Thank you so very much for telling all of us about this.
We haven't really had a conversation or anything, but I've come to respect you quite a bit from various posts you've made here on Everypony. It's really courageous of you to go with the surgery despite the potential risks. Like ePONYmous, I think I would have made the same decision as well. That being said, it's got to be a difficult decision to make, so major props for being so calm and confident about it. Good luck with the surgery, whenever it is, and if the risks ever start worrying you, just keep in mind how much of a relief it'll be when you can go on living and not have to worry about that condition! In the meantime though, it sounds like there's plenty of time to enjoy being on Everypony before the surgery!
You guys are the best. Thanks for all the good wishes, it means a lot. This is what I mean when I say you are all so amazing, it's how you make each person here feel. Nobody here is just a user, they're a person. But anyway, I can't stress enough how I'm not trying to sob story you. I just want to tell you how this site has made me feel, how you have all made me feel. And I guess I also kind of wanted to explain a possible absence in the future. I hope there won't be, obviously, but it's best you all know, right? Much love everyone.
I would say I'll pray for you but I'm not a praying man. I will however think about you and hope everything works out for the best
Read just now, and I'm a bit... well... afraid. I would never want anypony to die, it's just a horrific thought. Anyhow, Lu, you've been an extremely friendly person on here, and I respect you for that. Seriously though, when the time comes, I'll wish you the über best of luck, because of the reasons I've just given. *Sigh* Wow, this community is rather amazing.
You don't want me to feel sorry, sure I can do that, but you can't stop me from [size=+2]HOPING[/size] *Hugs*
God, Luprony, you're gonna make me cry! We are all here for you, no matter what. We will support you through the entire process. I will be praying for you very night I get the chance. You are part of this community, your one of the people who treated me kindly when I first came here. Thank you so much for being here for everyone. You are one of the treasured members here, I want you to know that. I can see in the future you still being with us, no doubt about that. We love you, Luprony
Again, thanks for all the concern. I didn't know anybody on this site even noticed me to be honest. But anyway, I'll be honest, I'm seeing this from a realistic point of view. Obviously I hope everything goes well, but it might not. I'm scared, that's the truth, but I'm prepared. Sort of. I don't know, it's not important. You know, I'm not actually dead yet. At least I don't think so. If I do die, I'll be sure to PM you.
