I already had bothered you guys with my problem and im sorry for that, to those that dont know i am a junkie, and not just in one drug. Im trying to stop and i have a lot of help from a friend but im not free of it yet and i dont know if i ever will be. I got addicted when i was 15, i was suposed to sleep on the house of a friend and he was getting some heroin shots, he offered me one and i refused, he insisted and i refused again, on the third time i said i would go home but he and his cousin held me and locked me in a dark room for three days: no food, no water and a forced shot of heroin at every 4 hours, may sound exagerated and dramatic but its the truth. im not ashamed of saying that i got addicted, trhee months later a met a girl, her name was Serena, kind and lovely girl that became my friend instantly. Because of her i decided to stop. i stoped heroin all by myself and suddenly, it just made things worse, i got into coke, morphin and hallucinogenics. I did the worse things i could have done, realy terrible things that should have sended me to Life sentence, but i had a friend with money and got away with it all the times i dont want to tell it because i think you dont want to hear those kind of things, i didnt killed anyone but the things that i did are still very bad. Serena was a good thing to me and so i stoped all the drugs at once and had the worse time of my entire life, but i got free of all that. then i started cutting and was into that for one year. Recently Serena died, she was a cutter too and overdid it, she bleed to death on the bathroom of her house, the will for the heroin came back and is stronger everyday. I have the help of a friend and i know that i can count on all of you. On an crysis of conciousness i gone to the police try to confess what i did but as the expected i got ignored. I dont want to turn the attention to me or make an big melodrama of my hard life, i just want you to know who i realy am and, even regretting to the end of my life the things that i did, i did'nt pay for them. This gilt is killing me, i learnt to trust on you guys and now i could tell it to you, kind and nice ponies thet im not too good, even if im trying to be.
Sonic, that sounds Horrible, but listen, your not turning attention on yourself. Remember were here to help you any way we can. Everyone can be redeemed for mistakes in their past. you just have to accept they happened and move on. You can turn any negative in to a positive. I know there is a good person in all of us, you just have to find it and let it shine though. If you need or want someone to talk to I'm going to be on all night.
I'm so sorry Sonic, what that friend did to you was unforgivable, he should be in jail. You did the right thing you refused and he forced you to ruin your life anyway. I really can't think of much else to say. I have no comparison of what you have been through. I wish for you to make your life better and we are all always here for a hug of support.
I know we've already talked about this, but I'm really glad you decided to be open about your problems. Now, we can ALL try and help. I know you said there were some things that you didn't want to get into, but if that feeling changes and you want to tell someone, I'm always gonna be here. You're a strong man for getting this out into the open. I know everything will turn out fine...
*hugs tightly* it's all right Sonic, you're good person now. I know it first hand. We're all here for you.
Sonic... I don't know what to say. From what I've seen from you, I know you are a very kind and good person. And under certain circumstances, bad things can be brought up out of any good person. It wasn't your fault you got addicted, so please don't feel too much ashamed about the things being addicted made you do... Drugs can control you, and it's terrible this had to happen to you. You are also a strong person. You have already shown this when you first quit drugs. Of course back then you had a girl in your life to motivate you, but it still must have taken an HUGE amouth of strenght and willpower to get through it. And it's just terrible you then also had to lose her... And it's very understandable the craving came back. But now it's important not to give in to it. Know you are a strong person. Know YOU ARE NOT WEAK, even though you may feel that way sometimes. And know you CAN DO THIS. Good luck, friend. We're always here for you. *so many hugs and love*
Therapy and support from friends and/or family is the best thing. I believe the best way you to cope is to make your goal to be better. Selena would probably want to you to stay clean, for example. Think positive like that. I've seen a lot of drug addicts die and a lot of celebrities overdose, but it's definitely worth fighting the addiction for.
You may have lost Selena, but you still have us Sonic. You are Strong, and can fight the addiction. We are always by your side even if it's a computer screen. (Someday I'll go to Brazil, if I have money.) As for your friend, he should go to jail for locking you up for three days. Just remember that you have us to come to. P.S: Pony Drugs are So Awesome!
Hang in there, Sonic! We'll help you as best we can! You can turn to any of us when you need some help!
thanks to everypony, i know that you may be tired of hearing sad stories, but i had to share it, the gilt is not gone and i need to get clean from the begining, i still feel like a shot will make everything go away but i dont want to get into that again. i learned to trust all of you so i told that. i did not told the things that i did because i was afraid that some of you may not speak to me anymore. all of you are awessome. thanks. *hugs everypony in tears*
*hugs tightly* you know what I've been telling you. drugs no, something nice and sweet yes (ponies etc.). you know we're always here for you. you're great person, and we know it.
Hey man, I'm glad you decided to share this with the forum. You know we're always here for you. We will help you through this tough time. You've rebuilt your life after having it taken away, and you've shown your strength through quitting. And now, even though Serena is gone, you're still here and clean. I'm sure she would be happy to know she affected you in this way, being as close to each other as you've implied to me that you were. You are brilliant and able. You will get through this. And we love you <3
Hey, Sonic. I hope you're feeling a bit better now. There's no point beating yourself up for what's in the past; just make sure you don't repeat those mistakes in the future!
if someday you come you will be very welcome ^_^ not everyone can forgive the things that i did... even i cant forgive myself :/
Dont said that Sonic, everyone deserbs forgivness if one really regret and sorry what he do, I dont had the pleasure to meet you in the forum before this thread, but now, I just want to you know that you have all my support, and of course, of all the friends you have here =), trus me.
