So... What am I?

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  1. Blize

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    I noticed that we have a thread discussing being Gay and a thread discussing Transgenders and I have a question about something related to the two that I couldn't quite figure out which thread to post it in, so I'm going to make my own thread about it. I don't tell many people about this because it's confusing but I figure I'm safe enough here on Everypony that none of you will judge me. So here we go. What I have to ask is this.

    What am I? I know I'm not gay because I enjoy women a great deal and am about to get a girlfriend who is wonderful, but sometimes, I feel like I should be a female. I am very feminine for a male and I enjoy sometimes wearing dresses and things like that, but like I said. What does that make me? Because I might want to be a female but I till like girls. I once joked with a friend that I'm a lesbian trapped in a man's body, but sometimes I don't even know anymore.

    So if I could get any advice on this subject from some of the members familiar with the transgender and gay subjects, that'd be really helpful.

    Thanks for listening.
     
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    The only thing I can tell you is... be yourself. I know my quote is a hackeyed subject but people around, who love you... will respect your way of life.
    Anyway, time passes and these feelings and sensations will help you grow and develop your personality. Cheers
     
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    You are who you think you are.

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    I'm with testyal1 an Rain Lullaby on this one Blize, just be who you are thats all that matters.
     
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    I can relate to not feeling like what most people would call a man, like what you seem to be experiencing. I don't go out and do typical man things, like play football, or drink beer, or work construction jobs. While I do like my NASCAR racing, and my old F150 pickup truck, everything else about me goes against of a lot of stereotypically male things, but I certainly don't think there's anything wrong with that. Sometimes I feel like I can relate to the opposite gender better than my own, if only because I feel like I have so little in common with a lot of other guys in my area.

    Your just a unique person, who has decided to be something other than the norm for your society, and that's something you should be proud of. It takes a lot of courage to be yourself in a place that tries so hard to tell you who you should be, so don't feel ashamed by who you are, make sure to always embrace yourself, and your differences from others. It's what makes you truly human.
     
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    Hey I don't know either, and I've come to the conclusion that I'm in no rush to find out. Perhaps its taking this long because it's supposed to? Fine by me, think of it as your "cutie mark story"...it takes patience to bloom properly and It cannot be rushed no matter what.
     
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    Its a hard subject. You have to be who you feel like you are. Don't be pushed into a stereo type or a group you dont think is for you. Besides who dosn't like to wear a nice dress occasionaly. ( i for one)

    Also Well put Bounty.
     
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    You are who you are; you like what you like. Nothing more is important. You like women, you sometimes like to wear women's clothes, and many other things that say more about you than your sexual desires. If you're worried about what the girl thinks - don't. You'll sabotage the relationship. Wait until you get a bit more intimate, let her get to know you, then bring it up.

    Even though I'm a big guy, I don't like many "guy" things. Football is about the only thing, really. I mean, for goodness sake! I watch ponies! I have often been described as being very in touch with my feminine side, which might explain why most of my friends are women, but I really don't worry about it. This is me, that is you. If some one doesn't like it, they don't have to hang out with you. I've always said if some one can't accept me as a friend, then I don't want them as a friend, however much it may hurt.

    Are you looking for a name to describe yourself? I wouldn't worry too much about that - it took me until just recently to find the word "pansexual" to describe myself. But, from the limited information you've given me, it sounds like you might be a cross dresser.

    Just be yourself, Blize, and let go of your worries.

    Yeah, I know - easier said than done.
     
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    What Bounty said 100 times over. Let it unfold naturally and don't stress about it too much. If you are transgender you will know it in your heart when the time is right to accept it. Experiment with bending the lines of gender and see how it makes you feel. It's also important to remember, like Bio said, you don't have to be transgender to enjoy dressing in clothes that aren't gender typical. I, myself, while biologically female, am far from gender normal. Some days there is nothing girly about me. I use the term genderqueer to describe myself. That's always an option too. Don't be afraid to go online and look up how others are labeling themselves and what those labels mean to them. In a perfect world labels wouldn't exist, but because they do it can be very comforting to know which one really fits you. I completely understand. *offers hugs*
     
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    The name for what you are feeling is "You". :smile:
     
  11. Blize

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    Thanks for the advice you guys it really helps, now for some specifics.

    @Bounty, I agree and like that idea. Now then. A 20 year old who hasn't found his cutie mark yet? I feel like Applebloom.

    @Dwynter, Thanks, I figured it was something along the lines of a cross dresser. I just... Always felt that I might be a bit more than that.

    @ResidualChaos, I wish there were never any labels, thanks *hugs back*

    @Sunburn, I never really pictured myself as a girl, just... I don't know how to explain it. I just figure sometimes I'm similar to a female.
     
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    Well, if you want to talk about it in more detail, I'm here for you. I'm available via PM or Skype, if you want to be more - discreet. I'm sure you'll get plenty of offers for talking it over, though.
     
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    be yourself. it's smile as that.
    No need to put yourself into some class, this isn't maths, or programing.
    do what you like to do, how you feel to do, and be yourself.
     
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    First, gender identity has nothing to do with sexuality. You could be transgender and still be "straight" (that is, be male to female transgender and still like women), because the two are completely and totally unrelated. You can be female and still like girls. Its actually not that uncommon, you know. In terms of what you are... I really don't know Blize, because only one person knows... only one person can POSSIBLY know... the person who knows you best... and that's you. Honestly. You just need to think about it. Eventually you'll figure it out, but no one can help you in this but yourself.
     
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    You are metrosexual, which doesn't particularly relate to sexuality at all. You're more in touch with your feminine side, though the cross dressing notion doesn't mean anything by itself.

    Currently, it appears to be quite popular in Japan for males to dress like females. There's videos all on YouTube where the male in question (face not shown) appears entirely feminine in posture, looks, and dress. Then they turn out to be guys (traps, some call them). I was surprised at first, but that sort of thing doesn't bother me.

    I have been mistaken as female many (yep, many) times in real life, not just based on my online persona alone. I'm metrosexual myself, but the cross dressing thing has always piqued my interest.

    Whether you do it or not is up to you, as well as who you show. While you shouldn't be afraid to be you, I do believe that not everyone should be exposed to all things that interest you. (I only reveal pony stuff around those that would take to it. Love and tolerate.) However, those that do accept you regardless of those things are ultimately better friends. :)
     
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    Blize, you are...

    *sunglasses*

    'you'. :p

    You don't have to give yourself any label if you don't feel comfortable with it.
    Labels are made up by people to simplify things, and they aren't holy scriptures you have to conform to. You aren't a 'freak' when you're not exactly straight, bi, gay, transgender or metrosexual.
    No one fits the exactly into a label, and some people stay far from meeting any predefined descriptions. That doesn't make them weird, it just means they are who they are, like anyone else.

    Myself, I don't even bother with defining my own sexual orientation. I'm just going to fall in love with whoever I'll fall in love with.
     
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    Like everypony said, you're you. That's the best thing you can be.

    However, if there is a word for what you just described, it would indeed be "Transgendered." That's basically when you feel like you're one gender in the body of another gender, which can mean a lot of things depending on how you interpret it. It could mean "I feel like I should be a woman but I was born a man", or it could mean "I'm a man who is into girlish stuff," or anything in-between. This touches on gender stereotypes, and I for one think that if a man wants to wear a dress, he should be able to.

    It was really cool of you to mention this, so I'll do it as well. I also have the feelings you described, and I know it isn't easy to identify what it is, and that bothers me. I just try to have fun and hang out with people who accept me for the person I am. Some of my friends even enjoy this side of me; one of them promised me she would take me dress shopping one day (I was SO excited!).
     
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    @Dilly: And those friends are the people you should be hangin' out with, too, people who accept you for who you are.
    I, myself, have never, ever had these urges. (I don't even think I know anyone that I know personally that does.) Needless to say though, if they did, I'd be there for them either way.
    @Blize: Just go with what you want to be, no matter what people say to you. You're you, and that's all that matters.


    It's amazing to me that people are willing to disclose this information about each other. That shows a clear bond of trust. Congratulations, Site. You've won my utmost respect.
     
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    Just be yourself. Who else could you possibly be, anyway? But, at least when you are around others, act in a manner that gets others to respect you.

    I'm not into sports (Actually, I like skateboarding...at the age of 46. That sport is responsible for nearly every noteworthy injury I ever had.) and I don't drink or smoke or act like a loudmouthed lout. Socially, I'm...not exactly shy...but far from the life of the party. I guess I'm more like a sheepdog than one of the sheep. I'm happy to be at the edge of the crowd, watching what goes on. Even my OC avatar pony's background story reflects that general state of mind.

    But, I'm well respected in my professional field, have plenty of activities and interests, and am a total information sponge. Bookworm? Well,
    Twilight Sparkle would say I read too much! I'd be hell on wheels if I ever got on Jeopardy, my mind is full of so much random/trivial/useless/specialized information.

    I'm far from a "typical" man, but I'm a perfect example of what I'm supposed to be. You are as well.

    Embrace your unique traits. You're special and unique...just like almost everybody else. :D
     

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