Since i been debating if i should continue to stay here or leave this forum, forever but i don't know. This is Place has been good to me but this is probably me but i've been getting feelings of Neglect from this community in the past month and half and been arguing with myself and here's a list of Thoughts of been rummaging though my head. Me: What the hay has been going with this Forum community? Why does this continue be the issue with me? My Mind: You Pathetic Fool. Do you honestly think people are truly Nice? HA! Remember, Jeff. No one Cares in this world. Me: Well what you say is true about human beings being truly nice, since it is impossible but no one is that heartless to one another? My Mind: Wrong again, you Gullible idiot. You can't please everyone you meet and just the fact no matter you go, if it a social area, Forum, or anywhere you go. There will always be people who dislike you the minute they see you and the way you act. Me: I refuse to believe such a thing. Leave me alone. I just want to be myself and for who i am...even if it not for everyone's liking. My Mind: Okay. Continue to live in your Fantasy world but just remember that the Real world's people will always think different of you since this world is Corrupted in all the minds of every human being you meet. Me: SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT THE **** UP!!! I sick of listening to you. Even your morals seem true but that doesn't make then any less true when you get know them. My Mind: Okay, Jeff. But Remember what i said. Sooner or Later, your gonna face facts and i'l be their proving you wrong. Oh before i go. I just want to remind you that you were never meant to popular. Ta ta! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ As you can see that i been arguing the facts that i never get praise anyway go. I will give the fact that i was never popular, even on forums or social networks. I've been called Creep, Weird, Retarted or Retard. let me make a point here and i'm not applying on anyone here in the forum but my life i deal with ever day here in my life. 1. I'm no Creep. My customs of fun on how i act if different when i'm having fun. As for example that make silly sounds and make facial expressions that i think are funny but creeps out others. I'm just trying to make you laugh, not you to avoid me. Some say i may be animated with myself but i'm just having fun. Nothing wrong with that to have fun. 2. I'm Weird? This is True. I know i'm weird and it's who makes me. I'm a free spirit that enjoys the happiness that i see in everything and act silly and what not But Don't tell me in the safety of your own room or house you don't the same things that i do, like act like an idiot or do stupid stuff that your friend's find embarrassing. Look, if you got something to say to me, let it out. I'm really interested in what you have to say, i won't think you any of you any different once i hear it. It's your opinion and i respect everyone's opinion's, no matter what it may be. Maybe this is way i confound myself to my room as it's my prison cell as i will never understand the people of this world and and there ways. 3. Retarded? Really? I don't think so. Using that shows your ignorance and who you really are in life. 4. Retard. I hate that word. That word has follow me since 6th grade and i'm since of being called that so much that. Don't you ever stop and think of the damage your about to inflict on that person before you say it? No, you don't. You just go ahead without a care and say it anyway and don't care what it comes down what the consequence may be, afterward. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Now. I know i may not be the most interesting person to all people but i mean well and support as much as i can to help any community,,,even for Forums and social networks but could you show some interest at least? Just asking. It's seems whatever i do or write, gets ignored and waits for the next person or a topic to pop up and talk about that for now on. I'm Very Sensitive in what you say to me or act around me. I'm Trying to be loose but it seems to fail after again, that i feel like Princess Luna that i loose the people around and wonder off in depression and sorrow that i just want to be alone. I'm not trying to sound despite in anyway. I just want answers. Maybe i need time away from here but i find it hard, since I've grown attached to this place it's folks here. So i ask you the people of Everypony, Should i take off or Stay? P.S. I Hope this didn't offend anyone here. I'm just speaking from my heart to this place.
Lol, I took a break for a month, you should give that a try, I felt much better coming back, hell, I post like over 100 times the past 3 or 4 days.
Well, If you feel like you have to leave, it's your choice, and I really don't know most people here well enough to post something that could pass as insightful for everyone, so I'll keep this short. Internal conflict is a strange thing. If you have too many doubts, you never go forward. If you have none, you are too arrogant not too fall back down. In moderation, it makes us stronger overall. Regardless of how you choose to act, you will be a different person, a stronger person, for it. And because of this, regardless of your decision, I support it.
Well maybe i take a break from this place. I'm not leaving, that's for sure. Maybe i try too much to please people. But i hear from my friends that you need to stop giving as rat ass about feeling for other people and start worrying about your own issues. I'l take a break for a week or 2 but i'l come back. I promise. The only Reason, Sunburn that i don't post much is that i don't know what to really talk about or what interesting for people to talk about.
The site seems to have an effect of people over an extended period of time. I know I don't post much but I've been dipping in and out of a state of anger and confusion recently and I know it's because of the site. However I'm not viewing it as a bad thing, just another hurdle that just happens to be in my way, there's no way around it just different ways through it and that choice is up to you. Honestly I think becoming brony and embracing the whole love and tolerance thing revives a long dormant sense of innocence in a person and as the community continues to grow and mature we all begin to fade back to the way we once were and having to lose what little innocence we just got back is a hard thing to overcome. As Dan said a break might be a good idea for you because if it's your own mind you're having arguments with then you might need some time alone to settle this. I don't want to push you away, it's important you make your own choice. Always remember though, we'll be here for you when you come back, community isn't going anywhere. Did I mention I hate autocorrect?
If I was at home, I'd have ton to post, but I'm stuck on my phone. In short, I felt the same way. I hate myself for ever thinking that way. If you feel a break is what's best then take a break. I broke the voice though. Leaving me nothing but happy. -- Sent from my Palm Pre using Forums
Well he said he found it hard to reply in topics on the forums recently. If you need someone to talk to go ahead and contact me on skype, my Id is Otirrob. I'm not on skype now as I'm on my iPod but I'm still here on the forums. I'm really hating autocorrect
Yes on both of you and Otirrob. I Listen but go nothing to offer in reply, cause i don't know what to say without it sounding silly. I Try to throw out ideas but it seems they get thrown away as right it is sawed out at and pushed aside for the next. I can offer words of wisdom and try to help out as much as possible but creating topic...ehhh not my strong point. Now if you want to talk Video games or Music or Cartoons beside this then now your on my level of thinking. *Edit* Maybe that the video in my Signature will fill in what i'm trying to say.
Sounds good to me hehe. That's a main reason I dont reply on the forums too much, it goes too fast for my tastes and to keep up with a topic I literally have to stay with it, and by the time I want to reply the topic has either moved on or I'll be too lazy to read it through. FUS ROH DAH -tableflip-
If you need to take some time away from here, Turk, than go ahead and do just that. We'll be here to welcome you back when you feel like you're ready to return. Just last month I took a break from here for personal reasons, and even though that was ony for three days, I felt a lot better when I came back.
Using Nightmare Moon as a show example here. Your dark thoughts are a gateway. What they are a gateway to depends on how you can perceive them. For me, it's reflected in my writing in both subtle and direct elements. At the same time, they do not affect my disposition in life (though I'm a cynic and open pessimist who silently prays everything works out). Everyone has them. An example: "I hate him. I'm going to kill him." An empty notion to simply express or channel your anger, but never acted upon (generally). I'd say the final scene of my 3rd chapter is possibly the darkest in direct, while the general character turmoil throughout the story for indirect. My writing is a way to channel that into creativity, I suppose. Still, I prefer to read happier material, but enjoy writing both light and dark. A chapter I have yet to publish is very dark again. Even so, I can write with the opposite intent at will. The best advice: Your mind is just over-analyzing things. It's a powerful tool with the greatest flaw of easily being wrong by Occam's Razor. As they suggested, take a break and see how it works out. You can come back at any time, of course.
