Wake me up, when September ends

Spoiler: Yes this is a reference to

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Seemed apt.

So you may have noticed I haven't really been around very much on the site recently. Officially I've been on a break from moderating for a while. That isn't to say I haven't been doing anything as staff at all though. This is because of a lot of various things, so get a tub of popcorn as this may be quite a read.

College

I started college towards the start of September, and this is by far one of the biggest reasons just as to why I've been away. Usually, in a morning, I would get up at half 6, leave the house at 20 minutes past 8 and walk to school. Now, I have to catch a bus, which involves an approximately 20 minute bus journey to and back. Now this is TOTALLY new to me, I'm not used to catching the bus everyday, and it really messed up my daily routine if you also factor in waiting times at the bus stop being about 20 minutes as well, meaning instead of getting home at about quarter to 4 in the afternoon, I get back at half past 4, which is a considerably lost amount of time for me and made me extremely uncomfortable. Then, on the first day, I found out there was work we were supposed to do over the summer which I didn't find out about because I was in Florida when there was a meeting about it, thinking it wasn't that important. So I had three days to do about 6 pieces of work, most of which involving like, 3 whole essays, reading a 906 page book, and buying a load of new equipment, and I mean A LOT. I spent a fortune in a short space of time. I was so worried by this point if you factor in the idea that this whole thing was TOTALLY new to me as well, that I was sick. I mean physically. Second working day. Not a good start or first impression. Luckily, I managed to work my bottom off to get it all sorted out for the better, and switched to a Media course for one of my subjects which is absolutely stellar. So I've been getting used to all that.

Family, homelife, and personal problems

Not only college, but I recieved some devestating news about one of my relatives, and it actually greatly involved me being ignorant to the situation around me, not realising it was building until it was too late. It's a personal, private matter, and I shall not go into it in detail to you guys I'm afraid. As for homelife, because of my dedication to 24/7ing the internet, and this site in particular, I've become quite detached from my family, so I'm trying to build strong relationships with them again at this age rather than focussing on too much else at the moment. I'm also helping out a lot more in keeping the house running, and trying to be more active in chores and any way I can help them basically. In regards to personal problems, I've been struck with a rather depressive stage of feeling I have little self worth, although I wouldn't say I'm a useless person, because no-one is. This is because of hours and hours of me practising skills with seeing little to no improvement taking place, which made me very upset as the world continues to revolve whilst I'm mucking around. But I've slapped myself out of that, and now I'm in the Glee club so hopefully I'll get good at singing in that and whoop de doo.

Everypony.com and friends

Lastly, there's the site itself, and also my friends. Tension, for whatever reason, has built up rapidly for whatever reason, and staff discussions became more heated than I would have liked them to be. Time after time I've been constantly frustrated because my points fail to get across, which disappoints me even more when I'm discussing something on the behalf of another member. All I need to say is that people need to snap out of this whole serious thing. This is a website, a forum, designed for fun and socialising, so if people aren't enjoying themselves then what's the point? Improvements shouldn't be made based upon how revolutionary or popular it will make the site, they need to be based upon what people really want to see. That's all I'm going to say on that. The site is for fun, not for a war between staff and members like an over-powered government or something. Just chillax a bit. Things got so bad, and so hopeless over this month that I've seriously contemplated leaving altogether on more than one occasion, 'only one thing's kept me here which I shall not share because I want to see if it's broken in the future. As for friends, guys, let's go back to the way things were. Making the site more about fun than having all these nitpick squabbles. Only one more thing, if a mod gets you angry because of their actions or something, bring it up, but please bring it up politely, it will make you look far more respectable than being snarky to them. If the mod gets angry with you for being polite and it's just because you said something bad about them, they don't deserve to be moderators in my opinion. Flaws need to be addressed, but more calmy than they have been in the past. If you already do this, thank you, it saves a lot of petty hassle. I feel relations between friends are getting a bit on the thin line, and I love all my friends, so I'm going to improve that.

Summary

Worst month of my entire life. No biggy.

TL;DR
I'm back, let's do this.