hey guys its chocolatechip again ive been seeong all thses happy people in relationships threads,and while im happy for tem,it only serves to dirve the selfhateness deeper as some of you know i have aspergerfs syndrome,a mental"difference" that serverely impairs my social skills,no matter how i try to make friends with tsomeone ,i always plan to throw thenm under a metaphrorical bus later on,so as u can tel ive never had a relationship,and probobly never will thabk you for letting me speak
That's a bunch of oatmeal. You know why? You're still very young. Believe me when I say A LOT can change for you as you grow older. I have some authistic characteristics myself. Every day I'm still struggling with social interaction, but when I look back I know it was a lot worse when I was your age. I'm can see I'm making progress. I think the biggest difference I made was to stop keep blaming myself for my flaws I remember a few years ago I was very often angry/dissapointed in myself because I couldn't make a conversation. Now I've just accepted that's part of who I am. Trust me: Just keep going. There'll be hardhips and setbacks, but it'll be fine in the end. For both of us. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm late for my test because of writing this and my mom is pissed with me
chocolatechip don't worry you will find someone someday. I used to think the same way, I was always the awkward kid in school. Life is designed to challenge you, now prove your better then life by standing up to it. ALL WILL BE WELL.
chocolatechip, I understand both parts of your post. Firstly, I know what it's like to feel like you're never going to find that speial someone. Heck, I'm single right now. But, I still have my friends, and a small part of me is very hopeful, considering I have a lot of time. Also, I know what Aspergers is. My youngest brother, believe it or not, has Autism, which is very much like Aspergers only WAY more severe. His day-to-day interactions with his own family are a war that we have to re-fight every morning. So you could be far worse off. This doesn't mean that I'm downplaying your problem. On the contrary, being alone hurts regardless of whether or not you have Aspergers, and having it can't help. My advice to you is not to blame yourself. Seriously, there is somepony out there for eveypony. Not only that, but but I have a feeling that you (yes, you) will find that somepony special.
Let me start with, life is not always easy; the world is full of challenges, metaphorical hurdles that you have to over come. That's what makes you alive. If life were simple, and everything you needed were handed to you on a silver platter, would this life be worth living? It would be monotonous, it would be repetitive, it would be down right bland. Just because something is difficult, does not make it impossible. And just because something is impossible, doesn't mean it cannot be done. It just means it hasn't been done yet. Division by zero - let me throw in analogy - most of us are taught through our school years that division by 0 cannot be done. Then calculus comes along, and there you are 1 divided by 0 is the limit of infinity. So go ahead. Let nothing get in your way. You are the only thing that can truly get in your way. Yet, that's easy for me to say right? Sitting at home living an easy life, right? Is my life so simple? I think not. Acute clinical depression, I was diagnosed with that 3 years ago. I chose not even let that slightly affect my life. I persevered. 3 years later? I've gotten over it - every single symptom - without taking a single medication, even once. It's not who life makes us that matters. It's who we make ourselves that counts. And that's a little tidbit of knowledge about me I've never shared before.
^ Aye. (Well actually I wouldn't know. I joined 2 weeks ago). But that just makes life more... umm... Gimme a sec, I'll come up with a fitting word.
