Afraid to get Paid

for some odd reason, I'm afraid (or at least don't like) to get paid for my art. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's the responsibility. I don't know why, but for some reason I feel more comfortable if I just give out drawings as gifts.

and to make things worse I usually promise gifts and never finish them. maybe that's the reason why I don't want to get paid for my drawings, because I know I would be disappointing a lot of customers.
I don't know. I mean I can do a lot of drawings in reasonable time.
I do sometimes feel I should be getting paid for the work I do, but that's not why I do it. I just like making people happy with my art. The thing is there is a opportunity of actually gaining more from it. I don't know what I'm talking about anymore , I guess that's the end of my rant?