An Issue of Trust

I was debating on where to put this and have decided to put it here. Note to any and all that read this I have gone to some staff about this issue, but I still feel like I should, no need to post it up here on site.

As many of you know trust is a very big thing and a very big commitment, trusting someone means that you share a good deal of info with them and that they are someone you can turn to in times of great need. However trust is not given away freely no matter who the person is or their position. Well I have a trust issue with the staff here on EP in that I do not know who to fully trust anymore, even before leaving the site, for the short period of time that I did, I had the feeling that as a "whole" I could not really come to trust the EP staff 100%. Don't get me wrong there are those in the staff that I trust 100%, the count is at about 7 right now, with others slowly but surely making their way up the ladder.

Whatever anyone says I DO NOT play favorites never have never will. I am also very cautious about people in general having had no friends long ago and having to rely on my self and my parents for a while, which in turn is why I'm very cautious and very slow to trust some one completely. Some people that I've known for a very long time are at 99% trust, anyone new to me is at about 50% so they can swing either way others, those that I do know somewhat well I give the benefit of the doubt and thus they are at about 65% on my "Trust Scale." There are even times when I've thought about leaving any and all forums, no matter how boring that would make my life, just because I don't know who to trust, that is now happening again, not only here but elsewhere.

If this comes as a big shock to anyone, doubt it, then I'm glad. I've kept quiet for too long, it's time that you all see me for who I am at certain times. If this hurts anyone then I am sorry, but the who said the truth wouldn't hurt is a liar. Just so you all know it takes a lot of my nerves just to type this knowing that all will be able to see it. I would please ask the mods and admins not to take this to hard as it is just me and only me. I would also ask that if this causes an argument that Lightning_Mustang close this, delete it etc. and only Lightning_Mustang.

Don't be surprised if I go "underground" for a while, though I will continue to post in the Role Plays that I'm in so they can keep moving on.

To any members out there, don't be afraid to post up in the comments below. I don't care what, if anything, happens to me because of this blog other than getting this out of my system finally.

Sincerely,
Rashall Firemane