Dazed, lost, confused, sick, and tired

Alrighty then so to start things off I'll let you all know that I've been sick since monday of this week, but it didn't really hit me until yesterday morning because of me being sick I'm tired beyond all belief and the core temperature of my body has dropped.

This in turn has made it hard for me to moderate chat mainly because I don't want to accidentially go off on someone for a minor issue so I'm taking somewhat of a break from moderating. This does not mean I won't be here to listen to problems that members would like to talk to me about, by all means I'm all ears. What it does mean however is that I get to step back and think, finally, about several things one of them being if I should remain on staff or not.

I have been considering leaving staff for quite a while now, but I have not gone through with it because I have not had any major time, between chores at home and school, to think it through. I've been told by several member, not staff members of the site, that they don't want me to step down from staff. My question is why not? I really want an explenation as to why these members don't want me to step down. I mean I hardly do anything really. I won't truly go through with stepping down at the moment as I want to understand why these members don't want me to step down. Then I will think it through some more before coming to a conclusion.

The other thing that has been going on, as in today and a few weeks/months ago, are all of these "major" arguments that have happened pretty much all over the site. I must say I'm very dissapointed in all of the ones that are involved, staff and members both as I will not side with one permanent side, consider me Switzerland in this reguard >>. Even though I am part of staff I don't nececarlly agree with everything the other staff members do, but that doesn't mean that I'm fully agaisnt them either, same goes for the members I see things that seem like good ideas, or at least parts of them, but again I do not fully side with the members. I guess you could say I'm caught in the crossfire of both sides with my head down waiting for it to pass which will probably never happen seeing as no one on this site save for a tiny majority can get along with one another.

All I want to do is come on here look around see that everything is semi okay chat with my friends I have made on here, role play a little bit, and be with my girlfriend. Seems that's a bit much to ask with the staff and members on this site.

That's all for now, oh and if I see any arguments or any negativity posted below I will delete the messages myself. If you read this and have nothing constructive, or positive to say please the exit is stage right.