My Decision

Decision = Leave

I was a fool when I made my last blog entry. I allowed my decision to be changed before due to your words.. I won't let that be the case this time. I must leave, it's necessary for me to accomplish certain "tasks". I feel like I'm going insane, but I also feel as though I knew I was insane all along.

Wanna know why I joined here in the first place? Well, it's actually fairly simple.. I wanted to know if there was someone out there who existed with similar interests. Or at least that's what I told myself.. After thinking about if for a while, I guess I may have joined to find friends/allies to replace the emptiness inside after losing my own friends. After visiting their graves the other day, I feel more at ease.. but I also know they can never be replaced by others. It was an evil act to even attempt..

I also don't believe I could ever fit in around a place like this. I'm not a social person, so I shouldn't be acting like one here. My personality seems to have been affected by sticking around here for a while as well.. I'm normally a very serious person, yet somehow you managed to bring out a happier.. well.. me! I'm not used to having fun. I know at times I was hiding my true feelings and motives, but it still left a strange feeling inside of my being.. I no longer want that feeling. I obtained it through selfish actions, it should not be mine.

Okay, enough with the rambling. I can't decide whether to thank you all or apologize.. So I guess goodbye will just have to suffice. I might return, I might not. It depends on how I change and certain answers I discover. Nice meeting you all, I hope you enjoy the rest of your lives! Stay safe, please!

(If I did this blog entry correct, comments should be disabled. Well, that's that, bye!)