Wasting Time and My Social Life.

I don't know if anyone cares to read this but i need someone to at least listen...

I need to stop playing this stupid ****ing game of dota 2. I'm gonna lose my mind and I'm wasting time on it. I don't know what is holding back. This is why my mother doesn't like me playing vieeo games. Brings out the worst me and plus I have an addiction problem. I want to get back to my work but I keep making excuses. Jesus ******, I need to get away from all of it and focus on what is really important. This is why I go threw A lot of "I hate Video games" Phases.
Apologies for the language since I dislike swearing in general.

Other Topic that's a bit off topic but relate to the top topic.

I like to go on Adventures but since the majority of my friends like to play video games all day, I'm subjected to this state where i stay at home and play games. This is why I go to the mall...alone. This is why Eat at restaurants...alone.
Sometimes I get that look from others saying that I might be a loner, since i don't eat with anyone but myself when I go out and I don't like to eat alone. Yes, I tried to get new friends but my Co workers friends just want to drink and smoke weed. I don't hang around with people who do drugs. I'm a Good child and don't want to deal with stuff like that.

Look, I may not be the most interesting guy you ever met but At least I do a lot with you. I give shows, I give you money if you need it, I do work with ya, I play with ya, I'm nice too ya, I give all i can too ya, and etc.... But it seems like its never enough to most people. I may give you gold but in the end, I get nothing. Could it ever strike you to actually care for someone then caring for yourself? Like listen too them? ... I mean, I take care the home from cutting grass to cleaning the house. On the Plus side, I need to take care of both my grandparent's sides of my parent's Mother and Father. I do there chores and needs and yeah...I could be doing others things, but I have to make time for them, regardless.

The moral of this Story is that...I need someone with me. I don't like being alone.

Heh...This may sound a little corny but maybe this why I can relate to Applejack. She hard working, takes care of family and like to do fun things but is sometimes taken for granted. Called a Background pony to some. I don't like it to be that way for her sake.