Why am I doing this?

This group of friends, were they online or in real life?

Either way, don't feel to bad about it. You can always make new friends else where. Or (depending on the circumstances), you could even manage to get your friends back.

Do whatever you can to feel better about yourself, but don't completely give up on life yet. Things will get better.

Don't do that. Things may not look good now, but tomorrow is another day. You never know when you'll find your next best friends. Life goes on, and you hide away from it, lamenting the past, it could pass you by. Take it from me, as I used to be just like what you're talking about being, and it's not a good road. You're still very young, so trust me. This is definitely not the end of the world.

It's fine to do a small amount of wallowing and self-reflection, but it's unhealthy to overdo it. Remember that you have people who care about you here.

@B-Dog they were online, but they were possibly the most important friends that I've ever had. No way I can get their friendship back, they banned me completely from all of the chat areas that they visit. So yeah.

@Yami This post actually seems slightly condescending. I know it's not how you mean it, but I just can't shake the feeling.
Or something. i don't even know.

@Lightning Why do I have a hard time believing that? I can't bring myself to believe that anyone ever cared about me, let alone cares about me now.

I give up, guys.
I'm past the point of being cheered-up.

Okay, so getting these friends back is probably not an option worth considering. But still, don't give up all hope yet. There are 7 billion people in the world, so what if you've lost contact with a few of them. It's highly likely that there are many other people in the world that could be your friends too.

Here on this site, we're more than happy to welcome you into our big circle. After all, the motto of this site is "where everypony is somepony".

Make new friends!