why i roleplay and write.

Have you tried doing interest checks for your rp ideas, before you put too much research into them? You might have to take some other people's suggestions on board, but you might also get more people involved.

Also, if you want, I'll rp with you; your oc Laughing Lake looks interesting.

It's not your spelling or grammar that bother me. I've seen much worse.

What bugs me is the walls of text.

I suggest that you read up a little on paragraph structure.

thanks you ridley and i have done a check with one person that was interested in both my rps he hasent done one character sheet so i know who hes playing let alone start his piece when i see him on.. i think hes ignoring me in a way

As far as writing goes, I've known some people for whom English was a second language, and I didn't have any problem being patient with them as they learned to write in English. You'll be fine as long as you practice. Some people can be mean about it on the internet, but as long as you let people know that you're trying to learn, most people will probably be accommodating.

thanks dilly i just hope azure responds soon. if he doesn't i might hav to find someone else.

I know you got some help with suggestions. But I'd like to say that you are not alone. I myself feel alone too sometimes when I feel ignored, or if someone out right attacks me for bad grammar or just spits on my opinion in a abusive way. I react one of two ways, sometimes both. I'll get aggressive, and/or get very sad, then depressed when I am attacked. It greatly affect my introvertedness and can leave me wanting to not talk to anyone.

But I do agree with TPR and Dilly. A interest check to see who would like to join would be a good idea. The only time the purpose of a interest check is unneeded is if you RP with someone you know as a good friend and are familiar with his/her interests. As far as dealing with people that insult or point out your grammar, it's pretty much as Dilly said. If what you said cannot be respected, then just ignore the person and move on.

Ok.. and im happy if anyone wants to try my rps..im not that used to ponyrps just yet.Lunar is being a doll and helping me sort to speak. i plan on making a blog piece with her head canon list. Im more used to human like rps like my dark love and love carrousel. and yes their borh dark but if i do a love ship with lake..i want it to be so fluffy someone daw meter breaks. And i know somepony has this power to do that! i know poison has this power because when i see her talk to her friends my ship meter breaks at times. soo ya.

Oh? My flirtacious behavior tends to break your shipping meter?~ Well Well, then~ <3

I cannot say I'm surprised exactly~ I'm just me, a playful flirt~ <3

ya and im a weird shipper i ship celescord,sometimes fluttermac if i find a good fic of it that doesnt make him sound like a player, and my favorite is crystalis (hoped i spelled it right) and celestia. ok i know its 20 on the 1-10 odd ship meter but i think of them as the stalker romance. 1 wants love the other is secretly lonely. 1 turns into a guy to impress 2 and they fall in love an one day equestria is screwed. ....i need to read more fluff i read to much dark stuff

Hehehehe~ Well that does sound interesting. Right now, Prince of the Night and I have been doing a thing where Chrysalis and Nightmare Moon are mistress and pet. Chrysalis being the pet. It's been pretty fun so far~ Hehehehe~ <3

Imagine a Nighmaralis ship with them taking over all of Equestria. Eternal night meeting a changeling invasion all in one. It would be kind of interesting. I actually wonder if it already exists.

I have been known to get angry at poor grammar at roleplays. Not at anyone specifically, but any of the older members can tell you that it is one of my greatest pet peeves.
HOWEVER!
There are a few exceptions to this.
1. English is not your first language.
This one is obvious. I can barely speak English myself, and it's my first language. I admire and respect your attempts to learn multiple languages.
2. You were never given the opportunity to learn proper grammar or you simply don't get it.
You cannot help if you never learned about grammatical rules, or if it is difficult for you.

What I cannot tolerate is when people have every opportunity to use the correct grammar, meaning they have learned everything, and they can use it fluently, but the people choose to not utilize their abilities.

It should not drive me as crazy as it does, but I don't know what it is. It just really, really, really bothers me.

Anyway.
/endrant

In your case, it sounds like Grammar is difficult. That is completely understandable. Do not feel badly.

*reads* so...much..texty rage anyway ya i was in special ed and even though i can barely keep up with college students today ill admit
1. my writing is chicken scratch
2.i cant write cursive nor read it.
3. grammar was kinda taught to me, but not properly explained.

to this day im kinda a speed reader. sure ill make a mistake when writing or reading but it makes me happy when someone translates it and gently notes them. you elunna,may i call you elu?Can see my ..small... technical difficulty and respect it. Oh and as for the english thing it is my 1st language but i was around Italians,cubans, and my family tribe abenaki before i even spoke my 1st english word and one of them words was a bad word hehe.