AxiomaticGeek's blog

Well i just had a nice few days up at my grandma's house 500miles away. Quite the drive though, this time she actually had internet making the experience not so..."stranded" feeling. Lmao! Got to play a ton of maplestory up there, got my Hayato to level 112 by the end of it. Anyway, we ate a whole lot going out to eat everyday at great diners. One of which was actually an incredible seafood place right on the docks where my grandpa and grandma are regulars and my grandpa actually painted the mural on the side of the building (he's an artist). It was pretty nice to get away from being cooped up in my brony-cave of a room for a while and experience the country side and the beaches. Plenty of beautiful scenery out there (morro bay/san luis obispo). Felt weird coming back home, we also spent some of today coming back with my dad's friend of 40 years Ed who is this really interesting guy! He has so much stuff in his house, you literally cannot walk around. It's like an episode of hoarders but the difference is, all of his stuff is REALLY FREAKING COOL! He has a bunch of fantastical items that youd never normally find and most of them actually have uses. He brought us out to dinner to a barbecue place called "woody's" which was delicious (he brought his own silverware...told you..."interesting"). So all in all, a wonderful vacation type get-away from the grind of life. Felt like sharing. Tata for now~

Happy Easter everyone, here have an accurate JPG

Well so i decided screw it, i'm going out with friends. I went to Howies Game Shack with a few buddies today, it's basically an entire internet cafe but dedicated to gaming to it's all super PCs hooked up on a LAN connection and you can play all the games they have there like WoW, Starcraft, COD4, CS:S, Garrys Mod all that. Well i was having lots of fun despite the entire time being so nervous and anxious about being outside and around so many people...and by the end of the night my mom came to pick me up and i was completely anxiety-ridden and ive been up all night having a panic attack. And now i'm going to an even bigger place tomorrow (today rather) a convention, with TONS of people and i am so scared of having a panic attack or some anxiety attack while i'm there. I just hope i'll have enough fun there to distract me from my anxiety.

Haha this group of guy's Minecraft MLP Mod series is great! So funny and entertaining to watch
check it out:
[video=youtube;QvAU_MNpJso]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvAU_MNpJso&list=UU2HuXNe5B14v2k5zTmtyHXQ[/video]
They're going to be putting up the Mod and server information/download pretty soon they've said.

I'm sorry i havent been very active this past week or so i have been having lots of heart complications due to high stress and anxiety and took a trip to the ER. It's sucked so far, but i'll get back to regular activity soon. Welcome all new ponies! ^.^ hope you're enjoying it here<3

Probably won't interest most of you if any of you at all but i made a video about reaching 4th job on my Luminous class in Maplestory ^.~
Spent the past week non-stop just playing after school and before school training my ass off on this guy and made a video to celebrate the advancement ^.^ [video=youtube;3ocrxW7LEsM]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ocrxW7LEsM[/video]

I just had to share this amazing GIF.


TO ALL OF YOU COMPLAINING ABOUT EQUESTRIA GIRLS AND/OR TWILICORN WHO IS VERY SMEXY<3 :3

theres some idiot behind me in class blasting rap out of his freaking headphones and its all pixelated and crappy and its just this high whining and i cannot freaking concentrate. Somepony help me. the room is in near silence so i can't just turn around and ask him to turn it down cause it'll make a big ol scene and i dont have the confidence to tell the teacher.

I had such a great birthday and a wonderful weekend. I felt so normal, relaxed and happy today. Rather than so anxious and depressed. I am quite content with my new gaming station, laptop to my left on a smaller desk, PC to my front. Feelin' like a cyborg. xD Anyway, that's just an update and why i haven't been so active this weekend. I can see i've missed a ton <-< i have some serious catching up to do already!
Glad to be back on the humdrum rail of life from this short detour of bliss and happiness ^.^

I started a tumblr recently, i like it so far. If you're interested in tumblogs about MLP, WoW, Star Trek, Fan Fiction or Dayvlogs go ahead and follow me
http://www.shuyio.tumblr.com
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is it bad that i feel like no one cares about my birthday? My friends don't really seem to care or even remember...my mom hardly remembered..my dad hasn't even mentioned it...brother and sister couldn't give two ****s...i feel so selfish feeling sad and upset about this. But i feel so unwanted and unattended to...everyones birthday means something except mine :/ my brother and sister got several hundred bucks last year for their birthday WEEKS in advance. My relatives haven't even bothered to send me a "How-do-ya-do". ;_; its just depressing that no one actually gives a flying fiddlestick. Being 16 and turning 17, a world of responsibilities about to smash into me like a 30 foot wave...one year of care-free childhood left. One year left of sitting at my computer playing world of warcraft all day, drinking soda in my P.J.s laughing with friends on skype...such a helpless feeling...and in this feeling...I am alone...cause it feels like no one cares i was brought into this world. I'm adopted, i have never felt normal...never felt like i could fit in..have always been hurt by everyone. -sigh-

Do any of you EVER just browse through a book store with some spare dollar bills, looking for a good title or good back of a book summary and buy one at whim and give it a shot, turns out you LOVE it and can't put it down? What about digitally, do any of you shop for books online? I want to write a book and publish it online charging 3.99 a copy and eventually 7.99 USD a copy and was wondering if any of you ever shop for books online or off? Not because i wish for you to be my target audience, but because i would like a generalized opinion on purchasing books. thanks!

Well finally the hatred towards me from this guy finally boiled over the brim.
I have a fractured nose now.
He decides to walk up to me, grab my shoulder, turn me around and knee me in the face. Went home early with a profusely bleeding nasal cavity and a fractured bridge. And 4 days before my birthday. kthnxbro. *flips table*

I am tired of my friends making fun of me for liking my little pony. Constantly telling me i'm gay and i'm retarded and that i don't have a valid say in anything because i like it. But yknow i can't do anything about it or say anything because i'm already lonely as it is and i'm just lucky to have the friends i do because I CAN'T TALK TO ANYONE WITHOUT SCREWING SOMETHING UP and you know what the worst part is? I can't even SEE when i screw something up. Doesn't surface and i NEVER realize it and that's what makes me so sad and upset is because when i do mess something up i will never ever see it and they'll just not wanna be my friend anymore or stop talking to me or be very short with me when i'm being nice to them. So to sum it up i have no friends practically besides one that i'm very close with and i never want to lose his name's Ian he's a pretty awesome guy and hes a bronie too and the other people i consider my "friends" are just mean to me and never talk to me and when we do talk at school we get some laughs together and mess around and talk about video games but for the most part they're just mean and they pick on me. I just want some real friends.

My idea of a perfect friend would be someone who would play WoW with me...and play trading card games with me like Magic and yu-gi-oh and didn't hate on bronies all the dang time! I would not even mind if he wasn't a brony, i just don't want to be made fun of for it. Someone who could remember my birthday like i remember theirs. Someone who actually gave a damn. I want to not feel lonely...isn't that what friends are for? ._.

Sorry i wrote a rant, depressing blog. I just needed to vent somewhere to feel a little better about being the loneliest pony in the whole wide world.

So my family and i visited my therapist yesterday, which interrupted my world of warcraft playing by 2 hours setting me back exponentially <.<
Anyway, she asked to speak to my parents alone first. So they went in with her and they spoke about several things those of which my parents would not tell me about. Then she took me in and gave me some sheets of paper to read through about identifying social situations and facial recognition. I wondered what that was about. I asked what they had spoken about in the car with my mom on the way home and she said Holly (therapist) is preparing to diagnose me with Aspergers Syndrome and is referring me to a psychologist. I have done much research on Aspergers and know almost everything about it...i have identified with it before...but now that it could be a reality...and i feel so very lonely and confused...i want to be better at social situations :/ i want to identify other peoples reactions and know what they're thinking..
well, thats what i wanted to write about. Good day.