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This is something I've been pondering for over a year. And something that has reached it's apex today, with the announcement of the MLP Non-EqG movie. I'm really not happy about My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic anymore. And really...I don't want to be that way, there are times I stare out the window and wonder where it all went wrong.


In 2012, I discovered My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic and subsequently, the Brony community. Those things gave me happiness I could not even fathom previously, having suffered from suicidal depression at the time. But when I discovered bronies and MLP: FiM I found happiness. But now it feels like that happiness was on loan and now I have to pay it back with intrest.


The more time I've spent in the brony community, the more it's felt poisonous to me and my enjoyment of the show and franchise. I have a hard time enjoying MLP: FiM because the community is constantly ringing in my ears, the toxic words of what seems to be an embittered and entitled community.


Once again I look out the window and think back to 2012, the blissful happiness I felt, I couldn't stop watching the show. I couldn't stop listening to the music, I loved it. I think back to the first time I read "My Little Dashie" And despite how sad the story made me feel, I felt happy that I was so connected to a character that I could feel such emotions about them.


As time has marched on, I've been in the midst of so much, I survived the Twilicorn event, the war that was sparked from Equestria Girls...And I feel like I survived two wars as a result. A survivor who keeps going back to the newly rebuilt town that was bombed out during the war. Nothing is the same anymore, I can't find the joyful bliss I once felt. The PTSD has set in and the memories never fade.


Being a clopper has never helped either, I'm not one to blame cloppers for everything that's wrong in this community, because it's not them that's wrong here, it's those who try to ruin it for the rest of us. But once I got into clop I felt a slow decline in my love of the show. Perhaps I'm looking too much into it or overthinking the idea in general. But it certainly never made me feel better.


But now I sit here and wonder if I can perhaps reclaim that joyful bliss...I do wonder, if maybe my love of those small pastel horses could be restored. But how? My only idea is to retreat and stop interacting with the community at all. But I feel that's impossible. What would such a feat entail? Leave all my forums? What if I wanted to continue working on brony-related projects, such as reviews, commentaries, music, etc?


In the end, I do feel I should leave this community and enjoy the show on my own, keeping only my best friends at my side, away from the toxin that has poisoned my enjoyment of the show for so long. Perhaps in my wandering I will find a new sanctuary...But I don't think it's possible. After the wars that were sparked from twilicorn and Equestria Girls, there just doesn't seem to be much peace or harmony here any longer.


If I avoid the forums, comments and general discussion of the show and franchise in large numbers, might I find the love I have for the show once again? Perhaps. Or perhaps I've become to embittered and disheartened by what I've seen and heard, and this will only serve to fuel that. But this show is in it's twilight years, I want to share the experience with other fans who are like me. But I also want to enjoy it. So what shall I do? The eternal struggle inside me it seems. But after all is said and done, it's not worth sharing the experience if I don't enjoy the experience.


I love My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. But I never seem to show it anymore. And I want to. Perhaps I need to leave for now and find my own way, and return for the final days. Pursue my own happiness. Or perhaps I'm just insane and rambling now like a fool. But I feel I should do something to enjoy Friendship is Magic's final years. Enjoy the show that literally saved my life 2 years ago.


I will find my love of those adorable little ponies again. Even if I have to do it alone. But I know I won't have to. Because I have the magic of friendship in me, somewhere. As we all do.


-Sev
10/20/2014

Slow day for Equine News today. Only got two episodes out. Reports on:

Brony Fan Fair shutting down:

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And the new Build-A-Bear Princess Celestia plushie:

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Today was an interesting day in the world of pastel Equine News. I reported on:

The Hub Network officially changing to the Discovery Family Network:

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Dollar General selling MLP Christmas cups before ****ing October has even begun:

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And Proper Q&A Etiquette:

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Stay tuned for more Equine News!

Today on Equine News I report on the release of the Equestria Girls 1 Soundtrack:

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The recently released live action commercial for the new Rainbow Rocks dolls:

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And The Hub Network shutting down:

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Stay tuned for more news!