Well I am off to school, early, and then I must take a Programming test which should take me like 10-15 minutes. ^^ See ya after that!
"Sorta...they're with me in my head. Not as in I imagine them in my head, but they are actually another part of me, a separate personality that takes over when needed. I guess I'm a personality too, though I'd like to consider myself the base personality. Sometimes I can't help but think that Cyanside and Shadow exist on a more physical plane. They're not real in the sense that I can reach out and touch them (though that would be so nice), but they're real in that they talk to me and help me in life (I wonder if it counts as cheating that I had Cyanside and Shadow help me during my exams). Cyanside is also my dream-state (Or an Avatar, in my dreams). I seem to have some weird connection to my dreams, basically, if I get horribly injured in my dreams, I'll wake up to find myself minorly injured (Though once i woke up the a broken bone in my leg...so there's a degree to how far I can push it). Since Cyanside became my dream-state with Shadow to protect her, I've had no more severe injuries. Just something a bit strange it occured to me, 9 years ago when I first started calling myself Caberea, I got 2 strange dream scars on my right shoulder that night, and had a dream of 2 beings, one light and one dark, whispering words of comfort and safety to me. They were too blurred to make out, but I can't help but wonder if that was Cyanside and Shadow...but they only made themselves truly known to me once I embraced the ways of love and kindness that this community had to offer, and so they took the shape of the community. My gosh...I think this post has just taken me on a spiritual journey...time to post it up as my 70th blog post."
"My gosh Snow, you have no idea how much of the mystery's of my life that post I just made cleared up, thank you." <3
General Chat Thread 3: All Aboard the Santa Sleigh I think all this tulpa junk is just a bunch of doo doo.
With the stuff that's happened to me I'm pretty much willing to believe anything. My life has been seriously screwed up, and either I've been mentally unstable/insane for a really long time and nobody's caught on yet...or there's more to this world than we know...
Oh! I forgot to post this here for ya'all! http://www.everypony.com/blogs/entry.php?1031-Thank-You ^^
I'm so frustrated!! I can't get Joy to the world right on this piano, I just can't concentrate and it's driving me MAD!!! There's always one mistake that get's made and throws me off. This thing needs to flow perfectly or else it all falls apart.
