It probably had something to do with me dying a lot. I am not that good at shooters, and zombie rushes like that make me perform even worse than usual. I was playing with my friend and asked him if it gets any better after playing through 2 or 3 stages. he said that the whole was pretty much like that, so I stopped and never played it again. I'm afraid I don't see the appeal of killing zombies just for the sake of killing zombies. Plus I just don't like zombies in general. they don't scare me or anything, I just don't like them. I gave the game a shot because everyone always talked about how awesome it was, and found myself severely disappointed. I'm sorry...Please don't be mad at me.
I didn't eat your spleen because i was mad. I ate your spleen because i wanted too. I kinda suck at it too.(i dont die often i just get swarmed alot)
And I'm here because my uncle died. Whatever gave you the impression we were mad? Hey Sparky, let's go eat some people.
*Smiles with blood stained teeth*Lets do this! *Crawls up a building and searches.*Over there!4 of them! A biker. A war vet a teenager and a..pill addict...Im not sure i want to eat this one...
Well, to be honest, I'm not having any particularly negative thoughts that stand out enough to remember. It's like my mind is just...empty of emotion or something? I dunno. Like recently, I'm sure you've noticed, I've been pretty positive and happy about everything that happens. Tonight, I'm just like, "Eh. Everything kinda sucks but I have no idea why." I'm afraid I can't adequately explain it myself. Like just now, I felt compelled to berate a well-loved game that I didn't care for. Normally I don't do stuff like that. I just say "it wasn't my thing" and move on. And then I felt I had to apologize for my honest (if negative) opinion and worried about someone judging me for it, despite the fact I know nopony here would do that because you're all awesome.
I've noticed that a lot of people have been depressed recently, but there've been problems with counseling threads. We need a Skype group to help take care of things like this.
Um..ok..I never wanted to change the color anyway..... Oh and lost.I might have to bite you first to turn you into a zombie.
If there is a therapy skype., sign me up for it. Xan thinks I'm good at this, and I trust him. And Terran, who told me the same thing. And Chapien. Why do I not believe them, but trust them still?
Hmm, it just sounds like you're having an off day, everyone has them, and quite often for reason at all. Its just normal. I'd suggest to think nothing of it, and continue as you were. Its when these things happen for a prolonged amount of time where you should start looking into it (like my 2 years of bipolar before telling someone ) See how you are in the morning (its night there atm isn't it?) if you still feel the same, be sure to say so in my opinion
You're right, of course. I knew it was probably something like that. I guess it feels better to hear someone confirm it. I'll probably be better by tomorrow or the day after. I could have a whole slew of mental problems and not know it. I kinda lost faith in the mental health system when I was diagnosed with depression and bipolar in high school and was given medication that did nothing to help me. In fact, it literally robbed me of all emotion. When I was on that medicine, I was an emotionless husk of a person. I was struggling in Literature class, but instead of feeling sad, as I knew I should, I felt absolutely nothing. I tried to will myself to feel sad, but to no avail. It was one of the worst experiences of my life.
This is why I say that using chems to fight mental issues is stupid. It dulls them, but doesn't fix it. Force of Will is the only cure.
As harsh is it sounds to say that, I agree. But on my down days (as I call them), telling myself that it's a matter of willpower makes me feel much worse. Kinda like, "God, just FEEL better! What's wrong with you, crybaby? Just do it." :derpe:
If I wasn't on meds, I'd have most likely committed suicide, but overall, ponies + this community is best medication, no joke.
My general strategy is to tell people to punch their depression in the face. This usually ends with them getting mad at me, ragequitting, and then returning later and thanking me, leaving me confused. Success?
