I think I need some support...

*hugs very tight*

first of all, don't even think about suicide again, you got that?
I'm very sad to hear you had such bad time.
there's always way out.
you know that we all love you, and care for you.
if you need help, please contact me (as my sig says).
actually, I'll pm you *hugs tightly*

 

Alright, I don't know how to make my points without sharing personal stories, but I feel like this is the kind of community that won't judge.
I've had really rough times in the past. I have a dysfunctional family, to say the least, a list of people I've cared for, romantically or not, who never felt the same about me, I've been abandoned by friends, and several other bad situations. One of my best friends killed himself a few years back, and it nearly broke me. I turned to suicide myself, but long story short, my attempt didn't work.

After my friend died, I realized just how much suicide effects the people who were left behind. There were people at my school who found it hard to deal even if they didn't know him, but just because they sat next to him in class or something like that. One person can never completely understand the effect they would have over people if they died. And I'll admit I was furious at my friend for leaving me like that, and I still miss him everyday. But the point is that suicide is never the right answer. After I witnessed so many people in my school getting upset over someone they didn't know, and then saw the rest of his close friends losing it, I realized I would NEVER want to do that to anyone, even if it was just one person. I wouldn't want to be responsible for causing anyone that pain. And whether you think so or not, you would cause someone that pain as well if you died.

I understand that some things seem impossible to get through right now and it seems as though you have no power. You might feel like the only thing you can do is wait, but that isn't true. After a long time of trying to handle things myself, I realized it wouldn't work. One person can't handle something like depression themselves. Lean on people. At the same time, the only person who can help you get over depression is yourself. I've met some amazing people who have helped me get through things, but it was ultimately my decision to get better. You have to make a conscious and committed decision that you're going to try to feel better. You have to decide that you're strong enough to deal with it and you have to believe it. It might take awhile to get there, but once you feel like you can make decisions you will be in a much better place. I promise.

Sorry if none of that helped, but that's just my experience. Please PM me if you need anything else. No one should go through this alone.

 

Silver....I can't make a large detailed post that shows all I want to say to you, but....

All I can say is that we are all here. You've been through some god-awful things and we'll never be able to know what it felt like...but we'll be here for you nonetheless. Just promise us that you'll try and keep moving...if you fall, we'll be here to pick you up, as cheesy as that sounds.

Much, much, MUCH love to ya Silver....

 

SilverPony........... I feel so terrible bad for you, for your terrible expirences =(............I cant said I know whats feel, because, thanks God, I never had that experiences, but for someone that had it..............just......... can say that we gonna help you to hang on and keep going, somethings are very hard confront I know, but........whit help always is better right??
*hugs to Silverpony* we are here to help in we can

 

I worded that wrong, I didn't mean to make it sound as though you can only wait it out. Time certainly does resolve old problems, but don't feel as if there's nothing you can do. The main reason it took so long for my situations to resolve was because I did literally next to nothing to get over them. My tactic to solving those problems was to just ignore them, which prolonged them. Don't think these situations are totally out of your control. Maybe you could try talking to your friends about how you feel, and listen to how they feel? Then you can understand each other better, and work together to reconcile any arguments, because if you try to fix it all by yourself, it'll take way too long.

I'm really sorry things didn't work out between you and Taylor. However, you can't let yourself get trapped in self doubt and "what ifs". Don't waste your time thinking "Maybe she'll change her mind if..." because it won't help at all. You've got to allow yourself to move on, which may sound impossible, but it's definitely not.

Just because you're afraid doesn't mean you're not courageous, it just means you can think rationally. In my opinion, courage doesn't mean you can face problems with no fear, it means that despite your fear, you're willing to try your best, which you seem to be doing.

This is your life, and you lead it. The mistakes of your friends, relatives, etc. don't define, or limit you. They just add on to your experiences, and though they're not your mistakes, you can still learn from them. You can get past these tough times, and there is always hope. Sometimes we're just afraid of allowing ourselves to be hopeful, in case something bad happens again.

 

You and you alone are in control of your life,
No matter how much it seems everything is working against you, you still need to do your best.

Just remember that somewhere out there, there is someone who has it worse then you and if they can cope with it; so can you.

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I did not have a good childhood. I always had to do things on my own, had to put in hard work to get my life to the point where it is now.

Was it hard to do this? *squee!* yeah it was.

Was it worth it? For sure, if i did not try to turn my life around, i dont know where i would be now....

 

I'm sorry to hear that you're almost in poverty...
I hope that all becomes better for you, especially financially.
Just remember that even being in deficit, is not the end, and that going into deficit does not mean that you are bankrupt yet.
I'm not sure if I'm one to be saying this as while my dad, who I am living with is in huge deficit that increases with the court case, is still able to provide a good life for the most part, because of his job as an engineer and good credit card/bank record.
However, remember that there's always hope, and that everyone here's got your back..
Feel free to PM me if you ever want, just like everyone else. I may not be able to respond immediatedly, but I will respond when I can.
Good luck! *hug*

 

As Thanapony said there is always hope. You have overcome things that most people would have just given up on. You are in no way broken. You may be going through a rough time, but remember it will only make you a much stronger person. I'm glad you promised not to commit suicide.

Remember there is always HOPE and that [size=+2]ALL WILL BE WELL[/size]

 

Thank you for being able to discuss these things with us. Everypony hurts, everypony needs a bit of help sometimes to get back on the ball. I think this is an idea we can all get behind and understand.

Things may seem a bit gloomy, but one thing I understand is that as long as one is alive, you may have an endless amount of opportunities to feel better - to be happy, even.

You shouldn't blame your bandmate's troubles on yourself. As capable and as loyal as one may be, no one can fix another's problems all the time. Do not get down on yourself because of this. Do whatever you can and accept that it's as much as you or anyone else can do for them.

Any good friend does concern themselves with what is happening in another's life, but it shouldn't be something that also makes one put their own self-worth into question.

Debt and heartache are never easy to amend, nor are there any quick solutions to them - to end oneself should not be one such option, as it is not only a permanent end to a temporary condition, but it also takes away any opportunity you may have to see that things will not always be this bad.

That is the main thing to take away from this current jam: things will not stay this way. Life always changes and the best thing one can do is to try and adapt to the many changes it may bring - both the favorable and the unfavorable.

Things are always difficult at first, but they do become easier once one begins to look at what they have and what they can do for themselves. With the support of others, this can become something that goes from being seemingly impossible to something that can and will be done.

Doubt and uncertainty are things that bring anxiety and even fear, but we musn't let it control our lives. We must take the initiative and take it as it comes. Through the pain and through the joy, we find that life is something that cannot be predicted, cannot be controlled, cannot be bought, and cannot be what one expects.

There is no other way and one must be able to accept this and say that they are okay with it. It is our experience. Our time. We must make the most of what we are given if we are to get anything at all. Even when we have nothing, we still have something: the next moment. Live for that moment and the next.

I know how it feels, because I've been there before - that feeling where there is no hope, where nothing seems worth doing, and that nothing will ever change for the better.

I have learned to put away such thoughts and continue going on as I do, to try and turn that around, even if I am the only one walking down that road. This is because I still believe - I still believe in the next moment, the next opportunity, the next time I will be able to say "no" to those ideas and show that I can overcome my fears.

Doing this is rather simple: All you have to do is believe in yourself. If nothing else, you must not lose sight of who you are and what you can accomplish. Everyone is worth much more than anyone can put a value to and one would do well to remember that.



I'm not sure how encouraging that all sounds, but that's what I wanted to share. Hope things turn out better for you, really. I'm in a bit of a tough spot on my own at the moment, but I and everypony else will be around to try and lend a hand wherever we can.