Hmm...This Is Tricky I don't quite know how to word this properly, but the way I see it, I guess in a way there's an own enemy inside all of us. I know I definitely have one, and I realize I do because of this here: [video=youtube;wylqjQ49Hps]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wylqjQ49Hps[/video] I also have been thinking about this: [video=youtube;wpndh6bm36w]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpndh6bm36w[/video] You know, fighting our inner darkness and the lies within our minds, I guess is all I'm trying to say. Watch the videos if you want to, it may help you out a lot. Thanks.
I like to think to myself and start coming up with crazy ideas that causes me to over think everything
...I guess I like to think that the stuff I like are true and I truly believe them. But when I hear this song, I try to make myself feel a little better. [SOUNDCLOUD]https://soundcloud.com/aviatorscompositions/reflections-of-a-dream-part-2[/SOUNDCLOUD]
"'Cause every now and then I kick the livin' sh*t outta me" Sorry had to do that lol. As for me, I have a confidence issue, and it plagues me in like every situation.
A war rages within me. I have DID, so at any point, I never know who I am. I must control my anger, or else one of my alters, a very violent one, comes out. I cannot see anything anything even remotely suggestive in terms of male furry depictions, or else I dissociate into my most destructive alter. Some days, I float in a void between all the alters. So I must maintain complete control and discipline at all times.
When I set up a basic goal, and stumble at some point on the path to that goal, I have a habit of tossing the entire goal outright.
I guess it's because YOU are in charge of what you do. You decide if you want to go along with the rest of society, you decide if you want to care for your fellow Humans, you decide if you are going to let your "Not-so-great" side will come out and take control, you decide how you are going to behave and what you are going to do.... Yeah, I guess it's like that.
