People. Just people as a whole. The idea that we fight and kill each other because of things such as he said/ she said, power, money, drugs (don't do these), or other idiotic reasons. The people who do so should realize, we are all the same species!!! Come on! We're in war, for stupid reasons, and we're going to, unless we change, wipe each other off the globe, literally!
Yet think, what could we do if we worked together instead of fighting. I mean look, Internet, Cell Phones, Computers, Lasers, *squee*ing Space Travel!!!! All because people from around the world stopped fighting, and worked together.
What I mean, is, that I doubt that that is enough. Humans as a whole are destroying the nature, just look at global warming, all the species going extinct etc. Humans are basically turning the earth into their own enemy.
And are expanding into Space and planning on Terra forming Mars, MARS!!! The planet that would be one of the three hardest to terraform. Depending on how you look at it. And Obama got something passed that would help with global warming. https://m.whitehouse.gov/climate-change-mobile
Sometimes I wonder how I don't cave in on my lust to destroy all life and existence. I may not have the power on my own to do that, but I'd start with the dumb idiots in my town at least. I seriously have enough pent up hate that it's pretty much slowly turning me into a demon in soul. Not exactly something one would admit out loud, but I'm beyond giving a *squee!* anymore.
Well aside from my venting in my blogs, I'm relatively well. I've been stressed to all hell and back though. Drama and money issues abound really.
I found my old suicide note I wrote ~7 months ago. I tried hanging myself and asphyxiation with a bag. I'm glad I lived but I still break down sometimes...
I wonder what my life would be like if my thoughts were as pure as my actions~ (If I actually wanted to help people when I was helping them, rather than doing it for brownie points.)
Sometimes I wonder if I should just leave for Canada or something. Much as I love my home, I wonder if I could lead a better life elsewhere.
I hate when i play a game and it's so amazing that I sit there wishing i can play it again with no memories of it so i can get back to original experience .
I would like to either leave to Canada or any other place in the world. Right now in my house me mother is being hella toxic and repeating constantly my failures (which to be honest ive made a lot) but I cant leave kuz I have no other friends outside my town. Enjoying life at its fullest ;P
Okay...I think I have finally completed all of the electrical repairs in this older building. I think...
The building that I'm working on, a business school, is four stories, mostly glass, and gathers heat like a greenhouse. The costs of keeping this thing cool are going to be astronomical. Personally, I would hesitate to take business lessons from people with no concept of efficiency or money management.
