Bleeding to death

I don't know where to put this, whether it should have been a blog or in serious discussion, but I'm sick. Sick of my ****ed up life. Nothing I do ever turns out right, and i always lose friendships because of my stupidity.

It has been 8 -9 years since i last properly cut myself, ad guess what, it's happened again. I'm cutting! I was used and then abused by someone who I thought cared about me, but i was wrong, then when i told one of my partners about it and he approached the person, the same person abused me again. So guess what, i'm cutting! and I hope to bleed to death this time!