What's going on with me?

Been doing my best to keep things stable as a member on this site by just talking sense. I do that by being positive but in a way you could say is cold and logical, something to get even the cynics to think twice because as a former cynic, I used to believe that all things "positive" are nothing but reassuring lies so by leaving out the "just feel it" rhetoric, cynics--at least the kind I used to be--could have a concrete reason to look up because I come of as trying to get them to know better instead of just getting them to feel better.

Though lately... I've been feeling as though there isn't really a place for me, feeling very much swept to the sidelines... To the extent that I'm not sure if I'll be missed. Another thing being the reasons why I joined EP in the first place; to have a place to talk about ponies and to talk about harmony or social cohesion as I would say it IRL. Everyone's gotten so jaded that it's almost a dirty word these days. Despite my efforts, nobody really took the example I've been trying so hard to set... It' possible to be logical, pragmatic and optimistic. Delusional idealism is a very dangerous thing and I understand this very clearly so I do my best to get in touch with reality the best I can. Let's face it, it's also easy for cynics to lose touch with reality and delude themselves like the everyone they abhor, the only difference becomes the polarity.

So now, what am I really doing here...? Ponies have sorta worn out on me more or less and it's why I argued at one point that ponies aren't enough to hold our community together, especially as it gets bigger and more diverse. I still enjoy the show and the fan content but I just don't really feel a need to talk about it... And then, well, with people wanting to discard the ideal of harmony instead of trying to get it to evolve into something more concrete and tangible... My reasons for being here have very much been evaporated.