Blogging Inside the Chimney

Okay, before I get into this, I'm well aware that not all Psychologists are like this, but I am frustrated with the ones that are, and that is today's rant in short.

So, first things first, you see, I have this mental condition called Asperger Syndrome (Thanks to Sunburn for correcting the spelling.). It's apparently a condition that makes people have difficulty socialising. Now, there are certain kinds of this condition, and probably some of them do actually have an effect, but let me just say, that I do not believe that I have this condition.

I was diagnosed with it, yet I do not feel that it has really affected my life. A lot of people i know who have it (like my brother) use it as an excuse to be a jerk. Here is an example:

Today I had to hand up an hard copy of my assignment to my CAD (computer aided design) teacher, but because we have exams, he wasn't where he normally was. I was on my laptop in the library, and my brother was near me, with a bunch of the other kids from my year (my brother is two years below me, but he likes to follow me about everywhere), when I saw the CAD teacher walking outside. I grab my assignment and run as quickly as I can to catch him before he goes. Give him the assignment, and he asks me how my exam went, so we have a quick chat about that and then I go back into the library.

As I go back through the door I see my brother quickly get off of my laptop and back onto his chair, and I see the other kids snickering while looking at my laptop. I sit back down, and find that my brother has changed my desktop background to Clop. Where I promptly changed the desktop back and deleted the offensive image from my computer. When I went and told my parents about how he had such a thing, he walks in and says that its because he has Asperger Syndrome. BAM problem gone. Nothing is done about it.

Now I may have gotten just a tad off topic with that rant there, but that is no freaking excuse for doing something like that. That isn't because of some mental condition of anything, that's just called being a jerk. However, here's where the psychology part comes into it. Because I supposedly have this 'condition' my mum makes me visit a 'psychologist' once a week, and while I am there they treat me like a frigging idiot. I try and have an actual intelligent conversation with them, all they do is say how I'm using such big words and how smart I must be. I'm not a godamned nine year old, I'm bloody seventeen, and for the most part act a lot more mature than most 17 year old's I know.

So why is it that they treat me like this? "Because you have Asperger Syndrome, and people with Asperger Syndrome need more positive reinforcement in order to be confident enough to socialize like regular people." Now I don't know about you, but if socializing like "Regular people" means I have to talk about nothing but sexual stuff and swear every minute, I'll personally pass and go for the far more civilised approach of talking like who i am.

Now these are just the people in my life, and how they respond to my having this condition. But as I said, I don't believe I have it. The reason why? Because I don't believe it's really a condition. We are who we are, and we should be proud to be that person. Labelling someone with a 'condition' is just a kinder way to say "You're different from the rest of the world, and the only way to explain it is that you have something WRONG with you."

Well you know what. We're not. We might think differently, or act differently, but all of these labels that the world puts on us are just it trying to hold us down, and give it an excuse to isolate us from the world. After all, why actively restrict their rights when you can passively convince people that they have something wrong with them. There are disabilities, yes, but that doesn't make us any stupider, or less credible, or less human than anyone else.

Well that was a long wall of text. Thank you for reading it if you did. As always your views on this would be much appreciated.

Okay, so I haven't started yet, and I've got exams, but I'm still going to try and find time to do review for all of them. Not those Caberea react's things i did a while back. Proper reviewish type stuff...okay, not proper reviewish type stuff, but have any of you guys seen the Nostalgia Critic? Well if you haven't, check him out, cause that's going to be the basic style of review I'm doing.

Please look forward to it...if you want to

Okay then, no RP'ing at the moment, this is just me, and a little thing that I've always wanted to happen. It's not something fancy, or grand, but it's my goal for the moment in my life, almost a steeping stone to my dream.

Basically, I know it may sound hollow, but for all the essentiality of it I want fame. Not to be in newspapers or anything, or to get lots of money, but just to have people enjoying what I've worked hard on, such as my video's, fanfics, etcetera, and spreading the word so that more people enjoy it. I freaking love hearing people comment on what they like about my stuff, and knowing that I've brought some smiles and laughter to people makes me feel happy inside.

The reason why I'm posting this now is because the very first stepping stone of my dream came to pass. I was just wandering about a chatroom on the internet, suddenly, random stranger appears and I start talking with them...Fanfics come up, and then they mention that My Little Death Note is one of their favourites. As quoted:

Me (Going by the name Caberea as usual) (Thinking it could be somebody else's story, or maybe Death Note: Equestria): "Sounds cool, could you give me a link to it?"

*Random Stranger: "Sure, just wait a sec while I find it"

About half a minute later

Random Stranger: "Oh my ****ing god you wrote that?"

Me (Squeeing for joy sooo much that I'm being told to quiet down): "Yes, did you like it?"

Random Stranger: "I bloody loved it"

(*Just in case, I don't like giving away people's names without permission and I haven't really been able to get into contact with him again)

Then the conversation began to drift away into over things, but that moment was when i realised that it was actually possible for me to probably achieve my dream.

So what's the next stepping stone you ask? Having me pop up in an IRL conversation. Talking with someone IRL and having them mention one my stories, or one of my videos. I would freaking squee so much if that happened.

However, for now it's still a long off dream, so I've got to keep trying, maybe someday the next step will happen, but until then i'll just have to keep on trying.

Thank you for taking the time to read this everypony, This was Caberea saying Goodbye and Goodnight

"I don't know what happened, I just left it lying about on my tumblr, and then it suddenly dissapeared. Everypony who was following me on my tumblr is going to need to follow me again Cyanside.tumblr.com (I lost you for some reason...)

In them meantime, I've been practicing trying to transform like regular changelings...but it hasn't been working too well (I lost my pegasusness...and colour)"

"Unless you didn't notice it's me writing this blog entry. Remember me, Cyanside?...No?...;_;

Anyway, what with Caberea going on the forum games and what, I think i got bitten by a changeling or something, cause now I'm apparently part changeling. I can't transform or anything, so don't expect anything special...though I do now have these sorta sharp-ish fangy things. Not really sharp or obvious...just a bit.

The thing is...I kinda now need love to live. Soooo...Anypony feel like giving me a hug?"

I have a tumblr for you to send all your hugs and questions to, sorry if its a bit bland at the moment, being turned into part changeling is really draining: http://www.tumblr.com/blog/cyanside

Okay, not actually, but today I have never felt happier in my life. I actually fainted from happiness. Why you may ask? Because of this http://www.fimfiction.net/story/62868/And-Twilight-Fell. I began writing this story yesterday based on the idea of writing a story about my ideas for season 3. I upload the first thousand words I write...and bam, within about six hours of it getting approved, I've gotten over 70 favourites on it, more than all of my stories put together I think.

In other words...I squeed, and then squeed some more, and then laughed uncontrollably, and then started hyperventilating from that laughing and the squeeing, and then i fainted. And when i come to I was still laughing and giggling and I still am and I'm squeeing and I'm so happy. I just want to hug everyone right now I'm so happy.

So if you didn't get it the first hundred times. I'M SO HAPPY!!!

Gee that sounds like the title of a story. But it's not, its the title of this blog...though it could and most likely is also the title of a book, but this blog is the one you're looking at, so it's the title of this blog.

Anyway, if anypony's been around the episode discussion/character discussion sections of the site lately, you'll know I have a strange fascination with ponies turning evil. It's not just ponies, any characters, any shows, I like, no, I absolutely love the episodes where one of the good guys becomes evil, or the evil guys become good. In particular, more than anything that I like is to see how it happens, what twists their mind into thinking those evil thoughts, or what conditions that its in.

It doesn't even have to be the characters turning evil/good, as long as they swap what sides they're on, even temporarily (eg. the villain and hero teaming up to deal with a greater threat) Then I can never contain the amount of squee i feel.

So err...Is that weird? It's not like I have a fascination with evil like a certain Lucifer Jr, but i do love to see those things of the struggle within.

My god, it's only been 8 years of having people ask me what my number is. It's about time i finally got a phone. It's not anything special, but it can hold files from my PC, which has now led to me having what i believe is the most kickass ringtone ever. Namely, this song. (WARNING, EXPLICIT LANGUAGE)
[video=youtube;TtyT9PH_AFs]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TtyT9PH_AFs[/video]
Anyway, I have done absolutely nothing else with my life recently.

Okay, I'm genuinely scared about my accounting assignment.

So, I recently had a piece of accounting work which we had to do detailing the ABC Learning Centres collapse, possible causes of it, and ways that it could have been avoided (Considering how the company itself couldn't avoid it, seems kinda like an unrealistic task for a year 11 to complete), and i was told i was going to fail because she hadn't seen the work the previous friday (she was too busy looking at other peoples) to know if it was mine or not.

But thats beside the point, that's just one of the things that's pissing me off right now, the main problem (and reason for the title) is the current accounting assignment (which i got today, the day after I'd just handed up the other assignment, a bit sudden don't you think). Now I'm going to quote word for word the instructions for this assignment, and just try and tell me this doesn't sound the teeniest bit suspicious/illegalish to you (When i say illegal, i mean in terms of commiting an illegal act, not the actual thing I'm doing being illegal)

"You are to go to Bunnings (A store that sells...stuff, jewellery and the like i think, don't know, never been there really) and one other store to examine how they manage their stock, ESPECIALLY regarding stock security from shop stealers.

You should break down your report into the following sections:

a) Draw diagrams of the two stores, showing the layout and clearly showing the customer entry and exit point, along with what security arrangments are in place (eg. Camera's, Security Personal and work shifts, Unlabeled stock security)

b) Analyse the securities strengths and weaknesses."

Anyone else seeing something disturbing sounding about this assignment? We're essentially being asked to find any faults in the companies security. Now if i were working for the company, this would be understandable, since flaws in security would be reported and fixed, but this whole thing sounds suspicious, especially when this question was asked in class.

"Won't it seem suspicious if we're going about the shop looking for security and sketching down the place?"

The teacher's exact response: "Well don't make it obvious that that's what you're doing."

And when asked for further details the teacher got very angry and told everyone to be silent and work (without having given us any work to do).

Apparently this assignment wasn't written by her, but by an earlier teacher, yet it seems very suspicious, I haven't seen the other class getting this assignment.

So what's your opinion on it? (Thanks for reading through all of this by the way)

I've finally managed to get that second hour I needed to have a viable work in progress to put up of my Nightmare Night cover. It is still very much work in progress, but here it is. (And yes, Its that point in the work where everything sounds exactly as it was recorded in, and for once that doesn't sound too bad.)

[video=youtube_share;oiPNDLhNRV0]http://youtu.be/oiPNDLhNRV0[/video]

I don't know what it is, but I can't post anything in the Roleplay section of the forums on this site. It just ends up refreshing the page and the post is nowhere to be found...the heck is going on?

Obvious edit is obvious: Hoorah, It finally started working (for some reason changing my browser helped.)

That's right, I have managed to finally get a Tumblr. Follow me if you like being led over cliffs. http://caberea.tumblr.com/

Mwhahahaha, I am incredibly evil. No i did not go out for Halloween, and instead of giving out the treats, I gave the tricks. This halloween I dressed up as Slenderman, I put one of the Slenderman Notes on my door (It was as close to the real thing as I could get), and waited...When people came to the door, I'd open the door and just stand there. I ended up still giving out a lot of candy, but I managed to earn myself some of it by managing to scare away about seven of the kids that came by just standing there.

Yes, I am a cruel and unusual person. But it was just too perfect an idea.

Hope you guys had as fun a Nightmare Night as i did.

So you remember about how I was supposed to have that hour today to finish my Nightmare Night cover? I'm not sure if i posted that or not but i think i did. Well i just lost it because the year 12's were all late doing their last assignment for the year so instead I'm going to be posting up a massively Work-In-Progress version later. Until then, I shall be screaming in rage.

Le edit: Due to this I haven't even been able to have a WIP ready for Halloween, so it's going to be a late, shoddy, only-had-one-hour-spent-on-it, cover. Damnit.

In fact, perhaps all month. I've hardly posted up on the site, I don't recall doing any of my homework (though i must have considering how all of my assignment are done...but when did that happen?), I haven't managed to get any work done on any of my fanfics...I haven't even been playing games?

Come to think of it, What the heck have i been doing this past month? Why can't i remember anything? The only thing i do know that I've done is that I've started working on a cover of Nightmare Night for this years Nightmare Night. So i'll hopefully be posting that up tomorrow...but at the rate its going at so far It'll probably just be a work in progress (Keep in mind I've only had 1 hour so far to do it, and I'll only have 1 hour tomorrow, so I'll have done this cover in only 2 hours

So yeah...*squee*